Tuesday, November 11, 2008

No news is good news.

I just realized today I am done. I am not going to have any more babies. It is amazing what a year with a toddler boy does to you. I love my two children with all my heart but if we threw another one into the mix I would have to throw myself in an asylum. For example, today my daughter had no school. Usually when its me and Lil Ro its chill. Well all day long I hear No no no. Lil Ro no. Followed by screaming and a smack. I run in to see my kids laying on the floor entwined in a wrestling move. I breath deeply and hold my temper. Lil Ro back to your corner and Roana back to yours. Round two begin. I am blessed with two wonderful children so I am not going to test the waters any further.

Also today Roana sat at the kitchen table and had a meltdown. She seriously cried for 2 hours. I did not know what to do. She then told me she was going to lose recess because she did not do her spelling words. I am going to talk to her teacher tomorrow and I am going to stand behind the teachers suggestion. It ultimately is Roana's responsibility to be in charge of her homework. Know what I mean?

Right now it is 8:45 pm. Big Ro is snoring on our mattress and Roana is passed out on the couch. Lil Ro is running laps around me. I am trying to find the positive in all of this. I know one day I will look back and laugh at it all. I will huddle my grandchildren and tell them these stories of your mom/dad used to do the same things. I look forward to these days but I am honestly in no hurry to have them come. I know my children are good and like anyone else are entitled to having their day off and I mean that every way possible. I love my babies and want the world for them. I know with all I want to do. I will give them that some day soon. And if I do not I know I am giving them the best I can.

4 Comments / Comentarios:

Not anymore said...

Wow, I totally know how you feel. It is amazing the amount of things that can be spilled, turned over, broken, and thrown in a matter of 5 minutes. But it's just that they (they being babies) are so cute when they are little and after they start growing up a little bit and getting their attitudes, doesn't it make you wish you had a little cuddly baby burrito again?

All I can say is that thought does cross my mind...After 3 children and all the crazy frustration, I sorta want another little bundle of joy.. And... yeah... I'll have a nanny... and I'll be rich so I can go into my office and the nanny/cook/teacher will take the kids. Cause I'm going to be a big player in the movie biz.. Yeah... that's the plan. Well, thats my visualization anyway.

ok. done' sorry for rambling. god bless.

Heather said...

Glad you could come to such a choice with no guilt. Congrats on your two beautiful children.
-h

Liz said...

*hugs*

Sometimes, I really, really want another baby. Especially a baby boy!! But then I start to think about the sleepless nights, diaper changes, crying, bottles, breast feeding, baby food, etc. etc. and my head spins. Add all that plus the two crazy little girls that I already have?! LOL, forget about it!!

Some days are def. way worse than others! :) You're a wonderful mom! Take care!

3LittleFlowers said...

(((((HUGS)))) we all have those days!!!! You should see my 3 little flowers wrestling... I bet you cant picture that one!! LMAO!!!!