Have I changed?

I am finally feeling good about myself! I now can see some difference in my face! What do you guys think? Compare the two pictures! Leave your comments. LoL

Is there a difference or am I dreaming?

January 6 2009






Feb 28, 2009

We are living in scary times

I am terrified. I was watching the news and I saw some scary things. I was apalled. My best friends sisters resturaunt was robbed on Tuesday. All they took was 100 dollars. Imagine someone could have been killed over a lowsy couple of dollars. From police reports they say the men were armed and dangerous. I fear for my friends. They really need to get an alarm system. I hope they do it sooner then later.

Then dont get me started on child predators. They are all over the place. Police were warning people on the news about that crap today. What happened to the time of innocence? I remember growing up playing outside until dark. Times have really changed and I am sad for my kids.

I will hug them and kiss them and let them know all is ok. I pray things get better before they get worse. Until then protect the ones you love and hold them close.

Just thinking aloud out here for a bit

My grandma is doing well right now. I called and they told me she is in a rehab home and should be home sometime in the next two weeks. Her life will forever be changed but she will be here on this earth.

I am doing ok. I am struggling feeling like a single mom with benefits of a husband for a couple of hours a day. But I am ok and we are two months in this now. We are going to succeed as long as we stick together.

This diet thing is wonderful. We are becoming more bonded and I am becoming more responsible. I have to step up. I have to be the one who cooks and cleans and makes sure there is food in the fridge but I feel so much more responsible and in charge. I think Ro likes it that way too.

I am slacking on my posts and I feel bad but I feel kind of repetitive lately. I hope all is well with everyone else. Tomorrow is Friday and we will have some us time.

I am exhausted

I do not know why but I am so tired. I am happy to report that lil Ro's rash has cleared and there is no fever so we did not have to go to the doctor. He is so cute. He tells me things now. It amazes me how much more advanced he is in some things at this age then his sister was. His favorite thing to do is rip his diaper off and run in the bathroom. He then proceeds to call me and say "Sissy, shower please." Also he is now saying "Thank you" and spongebob. He also requests and tells me what he needs. He is so smart. I love him and even if he is a pain sometimes he is the light of my life.

Roana is excelling in school. She went to school and showed me her artwork. She is so proud of herself. She is getting all A's & B's in school. She amazes me more then ever.

I have been thinking. In May Ro and I will have been married for ten years. Ro's best friend from high school is renewing his vows with his wife. It makes me want to relive those days. I want to wear the long flowing white dress and I want our family to witness our commitment. I would love to get married in his sister's backyard or even his towns catholic church. I want him to propose to me on one knee. I guess I am starting to long for a regular wedding instead of the quick elopement we preformed. I think we have enough time to know we will be together forever and I want my kids to see we are fully commited to each other. I will be patient though and may get my wish not 2010 but 2011 after he completes school. I love him with my whole heart and want my kids to know mom and dad are in it for the long run.

I am going to stop for tonight I am kind of wiped out. The whole house is silent and I know there will be a key in the door in any moment. And I cannot wait. I love my husband with my whole heart. The best part of my whole day happens here in a few moments.

21 days to a new life

We are doing this program called body for life and for the last two days we have eaten meals in the home that have been planned. We are using minimum fats and limiting portions. I really enjoy cooking the food. Here is our menu for the week starting with yesterday. I will post dinner only meals.

Monday Zesty Italian chicken with pasta sauce over fetticini & spinach
Tues: Beef Stir fry (low fat beef, napa cabbage, carrots, celery, green onion & soy sauce tossed with whole wheat spaghetti)
Weds: Turkey Meatloaf, lowfat mashed potatos and steamed green beans
Thursday: Turkey Meatballs & Spaghetti
Friday: Marinated flank steak with wild rice & green beans
Saturday: Chicken soup
Sunday: Free day (may swap with saturday)

I am very surprised. The kids and hubby love it. I am also a happier and feel more energy. I love this. Our family is getting on the right track and I know it will be great. I love taking care of my family and so far so good.

Our Starting weights:
Big Ro: 220
Me: 228
Roana:148

I am not including Ro-n cause he does not need to lose weight but I still want him to learn healthy eating. I know with all our help we will be happier and healthier.

The week-end is over

I love my weekends and starting this coming weekend we will be more diligent about eating healthy. Ro is back at work and school. I am so proud of him. He ended up with a 97.5% in math and a 103% in career prep. He is starting blue-print reading classes today. I think he will enjoy this class a lot. I am so proud of him. He even went to the gym today. He is my role model and I want to be just like him when I grow up.

Little Ro is scaring me a lot right now. He had a fever and I checked his torso. There is a raised blotchy rash. I think it is from excema but it could be anything. I have given him benadryl and it helped him a lot. He is doing wonderfully in his big boy bed. He sleeps until 330 in there and then joins us in our bed. He is growing up so fast.

Roana is well already getting her preteen attitude. It seems like she is getting more mouthy every day. She hates me sometimes I swear. I really need to talk to her about the girl changes and the birds and the bees but I cannot help but question if this is the right time. I do not want to be the mom who waits last minute but that also means my baby is turning into a young lady.

Life is calm here in our little family. I think these vitamin supplements are really helping. I feel so much more mellow and more relaxed. I know my kids are kids and I need to be patient. Even Ro sees a difference. He loves the new me.

Summing the weekend up in one post.

I am so tired its not even funny. On monday Ro and I are officially starting the Body for Life diet again. We want to become a healthier family and teach our kids that eating healthy is ok and can be normal. I do not want my children to suffer but that is another post for another day.

Friday we were supposed to have a friend over and but he was a no show. We sat around the house and played for a couple of hours. It is ok sometimes the best days are the days where you do nothing.

On Saturday we noticed a strange buzzing from the television and we decided to do an exchange one more time. Imagine my surprise when they traded it for a brand new television for the price of the refurbished one. I love this one for real and I am not returning it at all. We had our favorite chinese resturaunt and that probably explains my half pound loss instead of heavy weight.

Sunday we went to the park. It was lovely.We had a good weekend. I am tired hope everyone had a great weekend too.

It is getting so much easier

I am working on making myself a better and stronger person. I want to become a better wife and mother. I know I am not perfect and will not pretend to be. I have issues with anxiety and sometimes I get depressed. After doing some research and great feedback I have decided to try a natural solution. I have only tried this for 3 days so far but I feel a great deal better. I am taking a combination of St. Johns Wart, Fish Oil and B-12. I feel so much more relaxed and tons happier. I think it is helping.

On the diet front let me say its getting easier to make healthier decisions. Example I am eating breakfast now. Whether it be a bowl of cereal or a yogurt with fruit. I am eating breakfast. Then for lunch my obsession is Spinach with 1/4 cup sunflower seeds raisins & 2 tbs of lowfat ranch dressing. I sometimes eat a peice of bread too. For dinner I usually just eat what the family eats, just smaller servings. No matter if I lose weight or now I am becoming more healthy.

When I am healthier my whole family is healthier. I want to be around for a long time and by God. I will be if I continue this path. I just need to keep moving on.

My son's room is almost done!

Today I went to the dollar tree with my dear son. I am obsessed with that place. We needed shampoo and body wash and a few other lovely items. When I was there I wandered into the home decorating aisle. I am determined to find stars and planets for his room and I stumble across these circle decals and I think what the heck they look like planets kinda and if they dont work out they are only 2 dollars for 2 sets. I look across the aisle and staring at me are these lovely touch lights. I was very excited and came running home. When I got here I turned on spongebob and headed into his little room. I started throwing my planets on the wall and brainstormed. I had a round ring that would work as a rotation so I put a bright yellow sticker in the middle and positioned 9 circles around it and the rotation area. I put the two stars around it and the bed will go beneath the galaxy and between the two touch lights. I just need some fabric to cover the shelves surrounding the room and we will be set to go! I would love some glow in the dark stars and some planets for the ceiling but slowly but surely I guess.

It was a lovely day. Big Ro had his first final tonight. I am so nervous for him I checked his grades online of course with his permission. He is recieving a 97% in math and a 103% in his career building class. I am so excited and proud of him. I cannot wait until this weekend. On Saturday we are going to Falcon to pick up lil Ros toddler bed and then on Friday we are having a friend over to hang with us. It should be a wonderful weekend. I will post again here really soon.

Leave the Good Shows Alone

A friend of mine pointed out this article and I am furious. It appears that they are going to have Dora Grow up and get a makeover. She will be tween dora whose adventures are in the city shopping and playing magical guitars. What is going to happen to beloved boots? Was he a figment of her imagination? Also beloved backpack is he going to be bolsa (purse in spanish). Disgusting if you ask me. I love that dora could be like any little girl. She is sweet and almost tomboyish. This is disgusting and I hope it does not work. I hope heads roll. Leave our beloved innocent Dora alone and find some other toy or character to mess up like wow wow wubbzy. I could live without him...yea I could.