Not doing well right now

So I went last Tuesday to get surgery and it was a no go. My bp was way too high and they sent me to the ER instead. I am very disappointed and very scared. I think I am going to die seriously. My bp was going down some but with the meds I do not know if it really is. I will see in on the 15th how it is going.

I am exhausted but not letting the kids know. I want them to not worry about me. I hope I do better soon. I am kind of depressed right now. It is hard not to be. I wanted to blog and update. Enjoy these pictures from this weekend.