Wednesday, July 31, 2013

17 weeks and still going

Today was our 17 week appointment. Apparantly mommy hasn't been very serious with staying healthy with cravings. mommy has gained 10 lbs. Opps. Mommy is going to eat healthier again and work out just a bit harder. i want you to be healthy.

I heard your heartbeat again today. You were laying on my right side. That seems to be your favorite side to lay. I wonder who you are. What do you look like? Do you have green eyes, brown eyes or even blue? Do you have blonde hair, red hair, brown hair or black? Are you a boy or girl? So many things I wonder and yet I love you so much already.

We have your name picked out sweet baby. On August 21st, we will finally be able to assign it. We will find out exactly who you are.

Mommy is so excited. You are worth every single struggle I have gone through. Your mom is so in love with you already.

Anxiously awaiting Jan 2014 so I can hold you in my arms.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Third Time is A Charm????

Having two previous pregnancies I truly thought number 3 was going to be a piece of cake. Instead I am finding myself constantly questioning my feelings and fears. Yesterday I went to the office to get a work order. On the way home from the office a child who does not know how to ride his bike ram into my back. I was in the middle of a discussion with a neighbor and I felt a wetness trickle down my leg.

My baby right now is only 15 weeks. Broken water at this point is no joke. I ignored the child laying on the ground and ran to the house. I called my ob and instantly started sobbing. She told me to get a pad and lie down. She also scheduled me an ultrasound to check on my little bean.

Thankfully no more fluid last night or today. I went to the OB terrified this morning. I swore my baby was more quiet then normal.  I was convinced my baby was an angel.

The tech got me back at 8:35. She told me let's start by looking at that uterus. I did not know what was going on. She then pointed the doppler down and there it was. My sweet baby looking up at me. It got irritated at being poked and threw it's arms above it's face. We saw it's sweet little legs, and hands and watched it slumber. Currently it has a heartbeat of 160 on the dot. I love this critter so much. I cannot wait until January when I meet him/her.

This pregnancy is not easy but I am almost halfway there. I am proud of my sweet peanut and I cannot wait until it is here with us. Third time will be a charm. It will be the time our family is truly complete.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Being Plus Size and Pregnant

Being pregnant is supposed to be beautiful. It is supposed to be the time mommy happily shows off her stomach and can eat whatever the heck she feels with no guilt.

Being a plus size mommy you really don't get these joys. Instead of gaining 25-30 lbs during pregnancy they really limit you to maintaining or 10 lbs. Basically you still have to lose while the baby grows.

Then you have your already 7 month looking stomach. You will hardly ever see a belly pic of me for this reason. I am well aware growing inside of this fat is my child. I won't humor myself and call it my baby. My baby is the size of an apple. But oh well.

I am taking every week, every day and relishing this. Rogelio and I are both 1000% sure Baby Ro is it for us. We are both getting up there in age and we just know this is it. 6 weeks until I find out gender. All my birth board seems to be paying for elective but I am the realist. I know baby may hide the goods and anything before 18 weeks is still iffy. We are going to keep our elective in case baby hides week 20.

I love being pregnant. I just wish I got to enjoy it as much as most do. But it's okay. I am still setting baby up for a very healthy lifestyle. I am blessed, I am healthy and most of all I am growing a human being.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

This was a scary day

This morning your brother Rogelito woke up at 2:30 pretty sick. That is when I noticed pains all along my stomach. You are too small to cause me that pain from movement. I went back to sleep but the pain persisted all day long.

Mommy finally wised up and called the nurse. She seemed a bit concerned as you have been a test from the beginning. Daddy and I were terrified. My appointment was at 3:15. Mom and Dad barely spoke. We were both in our own worlds.

The doctor did some tests and then finally he stuck the doppler on my stomach. It took about 1 minute but there you were! Strong as ever. Mommy heard your heart beat for the first time. The stomach pain is from a virus or something. But thankfully it's not from you.

Our next real appointment will be July 31st. I am impatient but you will be now in my life at that point for 17 weeks!  I am praying daily for you as long as my prayer warriors. You are everything I wanted and never knew existed. Mommy loves you little one. Keep fighting and keep growing!

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Week 13 and you are already testing your boundaries

Today your mommy and daddy went to our appointment. We were so very excited when we thought we would hear your heart beat! Everything was going great. Mommy has lost 2 lbs. Mommy feels amazing. I sat on the table and waited for the big moment. Daddy had the tape recorder ready and imagine our surprise when the Dr. stated, I cannot find the heart beat...there is yours but no baby. I almost broke down in tears. Then she told me, let's get you into an ultrasound to make sure everything is okay. I held my breath and walked into the room.

The tech put some funny sticky gel on my stomach. I was surprised. She told me the usual, we will look at the uterus and other stuff first. Mommy watched the uterus and saw a sneak peek of a tiny heart beat.

Finally the tech moved the doppler and I saw a hiccup. It was your first movement and I began to smile. Then imagine my surprise when you lifted your hand and waved hello! So stinking cute. You rolled around. I guess the coffee and orange juice I had was counter productive for this appointment. Mommy will stick with water the next appointment.

So my sweet little stinker, you are testing mommy. You are scaring me but mommy is so glad you are part of my life. I cannot imagine mommy with 2 kids anymore. You will be the one to complete our family. Mommy loves you!