Saturday, January 31, 2009

I love Saturdays

So hubby did not return until 2:00 am this morning and honestly we did have a tiff. However after lots of thinking and no intoxication we both came to the conclusion that we were both wrong. I told him he could go out again but to please keep in mind he is a married man.

We went to a chinese buffett today. I digged the sushi like always. I love the flavor of it in my mouth. From there we went to Entertainmart and we got a new blackberry for our phone service. That phone is crazy. It is seriously like a mini computer.

It was a relaxed day. Since we did not get up until 10 we did not much at all. I love my life I would not change it.

Friday, January 30, 2009

I am Sad

It is getting really late and my hubby still is not home. I miss him dearly but I know he deserves a night out with his buddies every once and awhile. The thought that he would trade me in is hillarious. This man adores me. He may not worship the ground I walk on but we have a mutual love and respect after 10 years together. I may not be hot anymore but we still have the flame that is burning brighter then ever. How many couples do you know who still call each other baby and love? How many couples after this long still crave each others embrace? I am so blessed to have this man in my life.

The kids and I had a good evening. We curled on the couch and watched tv. I made them a deep dish pizza and we had some M &M's. They are wonderful little creatures. I cannot wait until we have a family day together.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

One day Closer

Tomorrow is going to be a good day. Why you may ask? Well for one it's Friday and I adore Fridays. That means the following day we get to sleep in. We get to plan outings. We get to be a family. Tomorrow is going to be a test of my trust. Big Ro is going to that get together. I have to motivate myself not to bother him there. As he will be with a bunch of coworkers and I do not want to embarass him like I have in the past. I must have faith that he is loyal. I know he is. He would never cheat on me. We have 10 years together now and well you know we were each other's first. He is an honest man and he truly loves me with his whole heart. He even sends me love notes on my myspace. I think I have it pretty good. So please forgive me if tomorrow I am on IM worrying or biting my nails. I will need the support thanks to my parents.

Speaking of them...I realized a lot of things about them in the last week. I loved them do not get me wrong but they sucked as parents. My grandmother and I were on the phone talking and she said I remember when you were a skinny little thing. I said I know it all changed when they worked opposite shifts. She did not understand what I meant. My parents did not have food in the house what so ever. The had goverment peanut butter, pork, cheese, mac and cheese and tuna and of course Diet Pepsi. I to this day do not understand how my sister and I survived. I think it was asking people for money to go down to the corner store to buy bbq fritos. I then explained to my grandma that up until we moved in High School my parents never cooked at home. The only time we had a home cooked meal was when we went to my grandparents home. She was shocked but I had to tell her the truth. My sister will vouch and she can correct me if I am wrong. My parents sucked and should have been trained better or should have required a license to take us home. Oh well....plus did I mention we would get beat when we took one of their "pepsis"? No wonder I have such issues with my food and weight. May they rest in peace only God can judge them now.

I have no real plans this weekend. I am thinking of maybe doing something next weekend for Ros birthday. My man is turning the big 33. I swear this will be a great day. I am thinking if the weather is nice driving up to Denver and staying in a hotel. It is up to him. It is his special day not mine.

I am missing him a lot right now. Is that so wrong. I think we just completed week 3 of school and I am so lonely. I miss my better half. I miss hearing him breath and even playing his xbox 360. I miss his scent and his eyes and his voice. I am constantly reminding myself this is better for all of us and very temporary. Its not like he is gone forever or we are divorcing but I still miss him.

My daughter is doing fantastic. She is learning to share with her brother but unfortunately since he has grown a little more she thinks she can abuse him too. I think the kid that picked on her last year has started again this year. The funny thing is we know his uncle but Ro tells me to ignore him because the child has a crappy life. The picking on part thing hurts me more then it hurts her. Funny how that works.

Oh look at me I am babbling on. I should go get ready for Ro to come home. If I dont post again for the weekend hope you all have blessed days.

Friends Award (I am so honored)


I recieved a Friends Awards from Meaghan & Jennifer who are awesome bloggers. The award states: "These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award."
And here are the 8 lucky winners of this award.








Wednesday, January 28, 2009

OMG its happening again

The fresh scent. The scrunched up face. The little coos. The little feet and clothes. I want another baby. I know, I know I need to wait and see what happens in the next year but I have baby fever so bad. I see so many people walking around holding their little bundles and my uterus aches. I want a little one. I want another baby. I want another half Ro half me child. I have even picked out Names (Rosalynn Jean or Rodrigo Eugene) for this desired child. I do not know what is going on. I was so sure I was done. Two perfect children and now I am questioning it. Just thinking about carrying another child that was conceived out of love makes me sigh. I can picture him/her already and feel him/her in my arms. I guess I have to talk to big Ro about this. Baby fever. I got it bad.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

The Joys Of Parenting

I know many days I complain about having no adult interaction. I whine about hearing the screaming and crying. Today is not one of those days.

My son Lil Ro is growing faster then a weed. This morning when Roana woke up I guess she rolled out of bed. Lil Ro heard the bump saw it was not me or Ro and he shouted clear as day "Roana, are you OK?" Tears came to my eyes. My son worries about his sister. I must be doing something right. He also tells me OK mom. Let me help. Here you go. He is flourishing and I could not be any prouder. I think yes these kids are stressful but I definitely want to add to my brood.

This weather is killer. One day its freezing and the next day it is tolerable. I just cannot comprehend how God plays these little jokes. I think he want to watch us get agitated. I know summer is around the corner and then I will complain about the heat. We cannot win either way.

This weekend should be very interesting. For one Ro is going to a get together with a couple of guys from work. I in the past have had issues with this. I am learning I have to let him go to keep him close. I just made him promise not to drink. Drinking and his diabetes are not good together. I am thinking of chopping my hair off again. I am so sick of it being long and I hate brushing it. I guess we shall see what happens.

For Super Bowl Sunday I really want Fargo's pizza. Oh my goodness that is a little slice of heaven there. I know its breaking my diet but what is super bowl with no pizza huh? I am feeling really good by the way. I can actually feel my body evolving into a healthier person. I am no longer eating mounds of food and begging for seconds. I am learning when I am full. I am also downing my daily recommended amount of water. I want to feel and look good for my husband.

So nothing really new. I am just so proud of myself and children lately. Of course I am very proud of my husband too. He really blows my mind such a trooper. I have never seen a man work as hard as he does on only 6 hours of sleep. I hope he realizes we know his sacrifices and we appreciate him. He is DA bomb. So that's really it for now. Have a blessed evening.

Monday, January 26, 2009

I must be living in deep freeze

I woke up today and the temp outside was a whooping 7 degrees. It has been snowing all night but it is even too cold to stick. I got the kids bundled up Lil Ro in 2 flannel pjs a sweat suit a winter coat 2 pairs of socks and a pair of mittens and two hats. He could not even walk. LoL Roana was bundled too but not quite as much. It was freezing. Sometimes I fantasize about moving somewhere warm. We could always be in t-shirts and would not have to wear coats but I know for now our lives are here in Colorado. Daddy has a promising job and his school is here. Soon the doors will be open to a new oppurtunity but for now we are here.

Thank you Nickelodeon. The only way I get any sanity whatsoever is when Spongebob is on. I can sit and relax and enjoy as my kids watch television. I can breath and focus on me for a bit. Lil Ro is growing up way too fast. He cracks me up. He has learned a new song. Called Somewhere over the rainbow....but Iz style. Anytime he hears it he stops what he is doing and does a little boogie and sings it. He has so much talent. I guess life is ok. I am just feeling down in the dumps right now. It is these winter blahs. I cannot wait until spring when I can venture out of the apartment again.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Counting my blessings

This weekend we basically stayed home. We laid in bed and slept in until 9. We went for a drive through Colorado Springs and had a great discussion. It was a beautiful but typical Colorado weekend. It was not too hot or not too cold. But from what I hear we are supposed to get hit hard with a cold front this week. Oh the joys of Colorado.

I am trying very hard to stay in budget. I am also staying cool and not fighting with Ro as much. I am working through my trust issues and learning that my Ro is a good man. We are nothing like my parents. He takes care of me and I am grateful for every day we have together. We watched Gran Torino this weekend and OMG that made me cry. I recommend it to anyone. I swear it is one of the best movies I have ever seen hands down.

I am thinking of going somewhere for Spring Break with the kids. I was thinking Ohio but I just dont know. I wish daddy could come but his coworker already requested that time off and daddy has school too.

Life is flying by. My daughter now has an attitude of a teenager. She rolls her eyes and rocks her head and I know I am going to have my hands full. Where has my baby gone? When did she turn sassy? Oh well that is the way it goes. I just have to guide her.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Great Day!

I am so happy right now. Today I did a total of 7 miles walking. I should try to do this every day. I even took lil Ro to a park to burn off energy since this weekend is supposed to be very chilly. I am very proud to announce that I lost 4 pounds this week! I have been watching what I eat and walking at least an hour a day. It helps people it helps.

Big Ro had his doctor appointment today and I am very happy with the results. His sugar is still high but slowly it is dropping. The doctor wants him to continue to take four pills of glucophage and in March go to a diabetes management class. He checked his classes yesterday and I am very proud to announce he is passing his courses with 100 percent. I always knew he was intelligent but this proves it to the world.

Roana is dong good right now. She continues to excell in school and is starting to stand up more for herself. Right now they are driving me batty. They are running around the house screaming like wild banshee. Guess that is a sign to stop for now. More updates later.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

My poor hubby

He lost a tooth. He is hurting a lot. I really wish I could take the pain away for him but I can not. I begged him to come home and rest but like a good soldier he stayed at work and then went to school. I am so proud of him. Maybe I should tell him more often. He is a good man.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Very Strange Day

Poor Big Ro. He hurt a tooth the other day and we had no idea what was wrong. All we knew was his mouth hurt. I am so glad we opted for dental insurance. On Monday I called the dentist and he got us in today. Ro went to the doctor and I thought he would be diagnosed as an abscess but instead he diagnosed it as a cracked tooth. Unfortunately the doctor decided it would be best to extract the tooth. Poor Ro when I saw him his whole side of his face was swollen and the doctor told him to take motrin. I ran to Target with the kiddos and got it for him I hope he comes home soon so he can take it and relax a bit.

The kids are asleep in bed and I am finally adjusting to the time without Big Ro. It is getting easier. He was very apologetic about not being home with me at all today but I know he needs to take care of himself first. I have to admit I have been a grumpy gus all day today. I think AF is about to rear her ugly head or maybe its just from lack of sleep. Who knows?

Tomorrow is Thursday. No way. I cannot wait to hear its Friday. That means Ro and I will have the evening to ourselves and the whole weekend. He maybe transfering departments soon. Time will tell.

I am very excited. I found a mutual friend of ours on facebook. Her name is Batina. She is a very sweet woman who keeps Ro company. I am glad she is taking an interest in me too. I told her we need a girls day out. Lets see if she actually accepts that offer...Not much new going on here. Oh yeah I filed our taxes. Hopefully Uncle Sam accepts them with no mishaps. Life is good. Gradually improving. So far I cannot complain about 2009 and the first month is almost over. Thanks for continuing to be interested in my life and check out that blog if you get a chance.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

We have witnessed history

For most of the day today my son and I stay cuddled on the couch. We watched the speech and tears poured down my cheeks. Our country is so beautiful. I am proud we have come so far since the times of our forefathers. Our nation is evolving and hopefully change will soon come forward. I missed having hubby her of course but he is doing his thing to make our lives better soon. Roana even got to watch the inauguration at school so I was very happy. So here are our pics from the inauguration today. Hope it was good for you all too.




Monday, January 19, 2009

Change is coming

I am so excited. Tomorrow will be a new start. We will have a new president and I think our nation is in for a better start. My daughter is very excited. She is still chanting Obama. Knowing that she has such an excitement like that makes me proud. She can be whoever she wants whenever she wants. Change is good and she is my inspiration. She looks forward to the future instead of looking in the past.

Roana has a couple of pen pals now. I cannot wait for her to develop her friendships over letters. Tommorrow will stink a little bit. Daddy starts school again. We will be ok though. Its a short one. Life is ok right now.

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Sunday, January 18, 2009

I love my little family

This week was really tough without my dear husband around to keep me company. He made it up to me this weekend however. We sat and watched movies and grocery shopped and even argued a little bit too. LoL

Mommy is starting a budget now. I have made a budget so we do not go out and eat more then once a week. The one time we go out to eat will be when we visit our friend at his resturaunt. This is our menu for the next two weeks. Breakfast will be fruits and bagels with low fat cream cheese and lunch ham sandwiches on whole wheat bread. The bagels and whole wheat bread total spent for 4 packs of bagels and 4 loaves of bread 10.00

Friday: Taco Shop (dinner out)
Saturday: Chicken Flautas Sour Cream Salsa Salad
Sunday: Manacotti or Stuffed Shells Salad garlic bread
Monday: Chicken Mole rice lettuce
Tuesday: Carne (Diesmillo) rice & Beans salad
Weds: Pork in green chile rice and beans
Thursday: Spaghetti with ground chicken salad with dressing garlic bread
Friday: Taco Shop(dinner out)
Saturday: Tortas de Jamon
Sunday: Whatever is in freezer
Monday: breaded oven baked pork or chicken with macaroni & cheese & veggies
Tuesday: Spaghetti with meat salad & bread
Weds: Carne rice beans
Thursday: Pork with rice & beans

I may switch the days out a little but I feel better knowing I have a plan and daddy does not have to worry about what we are having dinner. Plus here was our grand total for 2 weeks of food. $95.00 for 2 weeks. I am so proud of me. I am glad we are getting a grip on our finances and being smart.

Poor Big Ro has a tooth ache. I am going to send him to the dentist because it hurts bad. Keep him in your prayers. Life is good right now. Hope everyone else is doing well. Enjoy our pics and video.





































video video

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Fascinating Stuff Really


So big Ro was doing his homework today for his class on career building. His assignment was to take a Keirsey Tempermant Report. I read his and it was amazing. He came back as a Artisian. Scary how dead on it was. I then decided to take my temperment test and this is the result....

Your Keirsey Temperament Sorter Results indicates that your personality type is that of the Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials. Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things. Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds. Idealists are relatively rare, making up no more than 15 to 20 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.
Idealists at Work
Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. They are naturally drawn to working with people and are gifted with helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potential both on, and off, the job. Conscience looms large for you; in almost any situation, you feel compelled to measure yourself, other people, and the conditions of the environment against your personal morality. You have a tendency to perceive questions of meaning in even trivial matters and to worry about far-flung consequences of your actions. In your ideal job, you are free to pursue depth rather than breadth and quality rather than quantity. You feel rewarded when your projects and daily tasks allow you to immerse yourself in your process as deeply as you "need to" in order to satisfy your inner standards of quality. You are uncomfortable with the notion of authority per se and may avoid leading, as well as being led, either consciously or unconsciously. As you experience them, adhering to fixed roles and rules amounts to an abdication of your responsibility to exercise your conscience.

Big Ro does not think it fits me to a Tee. I told him I think it does but maybe he does not know me as well as he thinks he does. I did the test twice and came back with the same results. Grr.
Here are the characteristics....tell me what you all think.



I think you should all take it and tell me if they nail you guys too. I am curious now. Am I fluke? Maybe I am not true to myself enough. Oh well ce la vie right?

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Silence is Golden

Right now my comfort is the humming of the computer and running through my head is thoughts of love. Crazy how distance makes the heart grow fonder. Yes he is a 5 minute drive away for less then an hour more but I ache. I ache to be with him right now. I miss my companion my best friend and confidante. I can tell him anything and he will not judge me. He is the peanut butter to my jelly, the ying to my yang. I am so blessed to have found the perfect partner. I hope he realizes just how much he means to me.

Today was Roana's school conference. I am proud to report she meets or exceeds all expectations. She recieved an exemplary grade in math and that surprised me. My child is going far as long as I pay attention and nourish the knowlege.

Lil Ro cracks me up. I had to deep clean this apartment today. He picked up a mop and went ahead and helped. He mopped the kitchen floor and picked up his cars. It was too cute. Too bad I was paranoid or I could have caught some really cute pics.

I am doing ok. Just a little love sick right now. I cannot believe that it is 10 years ago and Big Ro still gives me this feeling. I never witnessed this as a child. I only saw anger and betrayal. I now understand why I have trust issues. My parents were not good partners at all. They were sickening now that I recall. They faked it all and lived for us but not happily. I will not let my children see me in an unhappy relationship ever. I am also working through my anger issues. I have learned a warm bath and cleaning actually cleanses my soul. Combine that with my blog and I finally have an outlet. I am proud to say I have not screamed or hollered at the kids in 3 days. Also big Ro and I had a disagreement over something dumb. Instead of egging him on like normal. I just rolled over and let it die. We both woke up happy again and in love. I guess in short our family is maturing. We are not perfect but we are a family. A very loving one who will have great memories in the future.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Isn't it crazy?

When Ro was around I took him for advantage. I ignored him and mistreated and now that we have one whole waking hour together I miss him more then ever. Its kind of lonely here. Yes we have google chat but its not the same when its a two minute talk and potty run. I know I am lucky he does come home and we have weekends together but I still miss my partner. I miss the inside jokes and the smiles. I miss the smell of his cologne after a hard days work. I miss watching him play with his kids. I miss my husband. Only one day more and then we get family time. I cannot wait. I have no clue how these military moms do it. Thank you military families for sacrificing as much as you do.

Tomorrow is Roana's school conference. I am hoping Big Ro gets to accompany me. Lets hope work lets him out at 4 for a change. Lil Ro is growing up so fast. Last night he went all night with no pee in his diaper at all. I have a feeling we may be potty training again very soon. So here is my rant post today. One more day and I will be sane again. Well close to it at least.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

I have an awesome daughter

Today Roana was given the Good Citizen award in school. I am so proud of her. She leads by example and is a great student. I am a proud mami. Day one was kind of hard when it came to my hubby working and school. But he is going strong. I am planning meals now howver and that is going to help us in the end. I miss my nights with my husband. I swear once we get a day together I am going to embrace it to the fullest. No fighting.

We had a very interesting conversation over dinner tonight. We talked about our past. He actually told me he loved me and was grateful cause he ended up better then he ever thought. He did better then the girl who dumped him. I melted and it was really hard to watch him walk out that door tonight. We are almost done though. One more hour and my baby will be home. The kids are sleeping and I am awake. I must stay up.

Something very interesting happened to me today. I went to target to buy some steel wool. Lil Ro was actually well behaved. An older gentlemen noticed and complimented me. He noticed Lil Ro was carrying a pack of cars and I did not want to buy them The guy then said he would get them for me. He got them and my son loves them. This lightened my heart and I know there are still good people out there in this world.

For every good there is a bad. My poor friend heather lost a dear friend today and my heart breaks for her. She had to put her pal of 15 years down and she is heart broken. I called her and though I have no words to comfort her. I hope she knows my thoughts and prayers are with her right now. She is one of the sweetest woman I know and I thank god every day for her friendship. We love you heather. Please take it easy.

Also my sister is getting laid off from her job. I do not know exact details but please keep her in your thoughts. Hope you all have a great day.

Monday, January 12, 2009

It's 10 o clock

The kids are curled up in their beds and I am on the couch watching some trash television. I have just gotten off the phone with my sister and I am ready for my husband to be home. I do not tell him a lot of things but I am so proud of him. He is sacrificing so much for us including sleep so we can become a more stable family. When I met him I had no idea we would last this long. Yes I hoped we did as he was gorgeous but you never know. Right? That is not the point right now. He amazes me. When I first met him he was working part time for a shipping company. He had just acquired a car now look at him 10 years later. He works for a world wide company and is pratically promised a career once he graduates from school. I am amazed by him more every day.

My children are crazy. Roana went to bed last night with a headache from hell. She woke up and told me drowsily "Mommy I did not sleep good can I stay home?". My baby loves school so I knew she was not faking. I let her stay home of course. We had a good day. After she read a couple of books we curled on the sofa and played Super Paper Mario. At 915 she went to bed and is now preparing for her day of school tomorrow.

Lil Ro is a riot. He is very active. I have never seen a child before who holds on to things for dear life. For example we went to sonic for lunch the other day and we were going to go to the grocery store. But when I pulled him out of the car he kept his hands wrapped tightly around the baseball bat. I told Ro we needed to resort to plan 2 of course. This child loves sports. He sees it on television and sits down fascinated by the glow of the ball across the field/court/diamond. He loves it all with no prejudice to any one at all. I know he will be big one day as long as we do not push him too much.

Life is good right now. Sorry I have been slacking on my blog but I was not feeling good at all this past weekend and I wanted to relish our last family moments for the week. No pics of course as my batteries died and the charger is MIA. Hope everyone had a great weekend. I know I sure did.

Friday, January 9, 2009

I am in love

Well of course with Big Ro but I found the best thing for upset nauseous stomach. I also found out its a diuretic but I needed it today for my stomach from whatever little bug I have. Its called Sal de Uvas Picot It actually settled my stomach so i could eat. So obviously right now I am not feeling a hundred percent. I feel better but I still need to rest.

Kids are doing well so is hubby. Just needed to blog about my new and old love.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Yea! It came around and got me

I finally caught this cold. My throat aches and I feel so tired. Lil Ro is doing so much better now on the meds we got him and I am sure he shared his germs with me. Today is Rogelio's orientation at college. I am so proud of him but why did I get this illness today of all days. I am drained. Seriously drained. I am really tempted to find a bottle of Nyquil and put myself to sleep. But right now I am the only adult so I need to be awake.

Things are ok. I forgave the person who hurt me. I think they know how bad it hurt and regrets it. For future reference when you say something remember that words can burn harder then physical contact. If you are interested check out my new blog. I am posting daily pics. So far so good. Even got Big Ro on board.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

So I had a bad day.

The baby woke up today at 330 and would not go back to sleep for anything. I of course woke up with him and realized we are out of tylenol. I gave him a lukewarm bath to drop the fever and prayed it would work. Finally at 430 daddy woke up and ran to Walmart. Thank god for walmart. We are now alternating tylenol and motrin.

Ro going to school is one step closer to starting. He turned in his tuition reimbursent paperwork today. The boss scheduled a meeting with him tomorrow to discuss the details. Honestly I am a little worried but I am sure it entails a lot of you have to live up to your responsibilities here. Tomorrow he also has orientation at the school. So it is going to be a test drive. I am going to be like a single mom for most of the day. More work and less play. LoL. At least it is only for 4 days a week.

Someone broke my heart today. I have been feeling so good about myself. I have changed my lifestyle and I was feeling like a more beautiful person. I saw a good looking woman in the mirror. She was big but cute. Know what I mean? Well someone close to me reminded me I am fat. I know this. Its a reality. I sobbed and gave them the cold shoulder. I hope they realized how bad it hurts and everyone of us have our own quirks.

Then Roana came out of class crying. I was so scared something really bad happened to her. She just cried to me though cause a great friend of mine made her a cute bracelet Erica and one of the punks at her school stole it. I told her we will check lost and found tomorrow but I know in my heart it wont be there. I guess it is a lesson learned.

So all in all not a great day. Hence the reason I am blogging so late. I hope everyone else is doing well.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Its a Better Year Already!

Today was a good day. Roana went back to school and Lil Ro and I had a great day together. I even made dinner and worked out for an hour. I am so happy. I have very good news! My Ro is going back to school. He actually starts on Monday. It is going to be paid by his work up to 5,000 a year and the class is for 18 months. I am so excited. He is going to get an Associate Degree in Mechanical Drafting. He is very intelligent so I know he can do this. Hooray!

In other news. I have started a new blog. It is called How to Grow Healthy Lettuce (Watch Our Garden Grow). What it is a daily blog of pictures. It will feature one picture of each us and will go a year. It will hopefully document our changes! I hope you all check it out.

I also cut my lil Ro's hair today. He was yanking it and I was tired of brushing it. Its not too short but it works great. Hope you all had a great day and I hope this year continues to be the best one ever!





Monday, January 5, 2009

Let's Go Chokes....err I mean Buckeyes!

As most of you know I was born and raised in Ohio. I bleed scarlet and grey. I really thought they could pull this off and they came close. I know I know there is always next year but when will I finally get a clue? Another loss, another year. No championship or even bowl game. I guess they will finally be good again when my Lil Ro becomes their quarterback. LoL

Speaking of little Ro he is doing slightly better today. He still is fuss and cranky but I know with TLC he will be fine. Tomorrow Roana starts school again. I am kind of excited for her but also a little sad for my partner. He has grown accustomed to his partner in Crime. Finally I can get my house back in order. I am tired so I am off. have a good night all.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Gotta Love Colorado

Yesterday it was 60 degrees outside not today we cannot get out of the teens. LMAO! It is freezing and snowing and now the baby is sick. He is coughing and running a fever. I am alternating tylenol and motrin and I know he will be better but that does not make it any better right now. If we could stick to one season it would be fine Know What I mean? We went to McDonalds today and the playplace was completely empty. I was ticked off. I did not want McDonalds at all. I ordered a side salad and a fruit and yogurt parfait instead of sandwiches. I also drank lemonade. We promised the kids we would go there a couple of weeks ago and we have to stick by our promises. I am sticking to my resolution to eat better! So here I am today. Just dealing with sick kids and cranky husband but its still going. Talking to him about his career and things. Life is ok just trying. Gotta stay positive ya know.

Just so you all know he started coughing and the fever started after McDonalds. I dont want to be labeled that mom who does not give a darn.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

We got out of the house today!

Finally some warmth to get outside and burn off extra energy. Fun in the sun and good times for all. I am feeling somewhat more positive today. We looked at some gyms. Daddy is going to get more fit for his health. I want to go too but with 2 kids its impossible. I will continue to train at home. Its probably better anyway so the kids can see mom is trying too.

We tried to go into the mountains and take a video but Lil Ro got car sick. Or so I thought. I hope he is better. Keep us in your prayers.















Friday, January 2, 2009

My First Rosca De Reyes


I know technically Rosca De Reyes is technically on Tuesday and I know technically not celebrated until then. However on Tuesday Roana has school and Big Ro has to work.


I am still learning how to celebrate this tradition with the family. I saw the cake on sale at our local latino market and decided to give it a go. I want my children to embrace their mexican heritage and not hide from it. Also doing research on this holiday made me fall in love with it. All about Christ and I love that.


The funny thing is the cake is supposed to have one baby Jesus baked inside of it. Imagine my surprise when we found 4 total. It is the thought that counts I guess and we will learn every year as we get better at this fine holiday.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

It is 2009

We are home today. Its too cold to go outside. Hubby is home from work today and I am so fed up with these two kids. Thank God Tuesday is school. I cannot take the hollering and arguing anymore. My nerves are fried and I am exhausted. I am so glad this is a new year. We all need a fresh start. Today we had Brats and Sauerkraut for dinner to celebrate the New Year. Pork was eaten to symbloize a fresh look into the new Year and pigs cannot look back so we are not to look back like the pigs. The sauerkraut is supposed to bring luck. That is our excitement for the day.

I apologize for my little rant yesterday. It was a very bad day for us. Roana misbehaved and got disciplined. Ro and I had a huge argument over it. Things are better today. Thanks for all the well wishes.