Thursday, January 15, 2009

Silence is Golden

Right now my comfort is the humming of the computer and running through my head is thoughts of love. Crazy how distance makes the heart grow fonder. Yes he is a 5 minute drive away for less then an hour more but I ache. I ache to be with him right now. I miss my companion my best friend and confidante. I can tell him anything and he will not judge me. He is the peanut butter to my jelly, the ying to my yang. I am so blessed to have found the perfect partner. I hope he realizes just how much he means to me.

Today was Roana's school conference. I am proud to report she meets or exceeds all expectations. She recieved an exemplary grade in math and that surprised me. My child is going far as long as I pay attention and nourish the knowlege.

Lil Ro cracks me up. I had to deep clean this apartment today. He picked up a mop and went ahead and helped. He mopped the kitchen floor and picked up his cars. It was too cute. Too bad I was paranoid or I could have caught some really cute pics.

I am doing ok. Just a little love sick right now. I cannot believe that it is 10 years ago and Big Ro still gives me this feeling. I never witnessed this as a child. I only saw anger and betrayal. I now understand why I have trust issues. My parents were not good partners at all. They were sickening now that I recall. They faked it all and lived for us but not happily. I will not let my children see me in an unhappy relationship ever. I am also working through my anger issues. I have learned a warm bath and cleaning actually cleanses my soul. Combine that with my blog and I finally have an outlet. I am proud to say I have not screamed or hollered at the kids in 3 days. Also big Ro and I had a disagreement over something dumb. Instead of egging him on like normal. I just rolled over and let it die. We both woke up happy again and in love. I guess in short our family is maturing. We are not perfect but we are a family. A very loving one who will have great memories in the future.

3 Comments / Comentarios:

Crystal said...

I am so glad to hear that you and your family have been doing so good. I haven't been on blogger in a while.

I love your 'Watch my Garden grow' The 365 Project!!! I have always wanted to do one, but worried if I could stick to it every single day. I am now thinking about it once again.

I look forward to your blog and your 365 Project this year. I have a feeling this year will be better for everyone.

Crystal ~

Heather said...

Soon you will all be back together. Hang in there!

Momto3LittleFlowers said...

Way to go to Roana!!!!! and also to Ro-N for cleaning! LOL

Good job on not screaming!! Keep it like it!!!