Thursday, January 31, 2008

Random thoughts running through my mind

So yesterday we attempted a normal day. We went to get groceries and stopped at this rad store called Entertainmart! My lil Ro has an obsession with guitars and would not stop screaming so I handed it to him and these are what we got!

I am starting to feel somewhat better. I just have a cough that is sitting in my chest now. I know I will recooperate. Roana is turning into one spicy child. She is back talking and letting me know I am not her teacher. I am trying to stay patient with her but so far the only thing that works is sending her to her room for the rest of the evening. Is it even posible for the hormones to start this early?

This world is going mad. A man here who killed a police officer point blank plead not guilty claiming he did not know he was police. A mom burned 5 of her children while they were sleeping because of financial decisions. It is a sad sad world right now. I am going to hug my baby tighter and be more patient but hopefully soon the world will right itself. Enjoy the pics. My friend that had surgery is fine thanks for the prayers

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

When it Rains it Pours

I swore to everyone I would not post a blog until it was positive. I really want to be upbeat in this blog but I now know this is impossible this week. I am sick as a dog and I cannot shake it. I am coughing, feel nauseous and worse of all have a headache. To make matters worse I got bad news yesterday. A friend on my son's baby board passed away. I am saddened by this because her children will not know their mother the way we did.

Then of Course Mr. Ro turned into an ass. Our friend is having surgery today and I am worried for her too. Last night I had to spank my Ro-N he was jumping on our bed and making a ruckus. He said "I do not believe in hitting babies." Yeah right unless they are standing in front of the television in the middle of your xbox game right? Now he is saying I'm ungrateful when he works hard for us. God I am just tempted to leave. Take my shit and go and never look back.

When anyone else is sick they get babied me I have to suck it up and be a woman. We have not even done the deed in over 3 weeks now and I have to beg for it like a pathetic teenager. Even then its excuse after excuse. Am I that repulsive? RIght now I am losing my mind. My head hurts and Im sick of cosleeping. I need my space and for some reason these kids think the bed is all thiers. I give up. I think they would all be better off without me. I need some time to think. It figures the day I need someone to cry with noone is around. Lets all pray this day gets better. Thanks for looking.

Friday, January 25, 2008

I QUIT!!!!!!!!

I am so tired of the screaming baby, the rude teachers and the nagging husband. I quit life. I told dh I am not feeling good so he gives me know how by buying pizza and making me serve it! Thanks hunny that helps me bunches! My daughter Roana was sent home from school for having a fever. Guess what it broke and her new form of entertainment is torturing her lil brother.

Don't get me started on the cable today. For some reason the dang internet went out and I fixed it after 25 minutes. Then I had to pull out the tv to fix the dang box. I got both working but I got in trouble for tangling the cords to his 360 up. I am pulling my hair out here!

Where is my Pina Colada and sleep mask???? Hell I need a shot of whiskey. When is my break when do I get to be sick and be babied. Yea thats right they call me mommy and wife. When I took that ring and popped these creatures out I gave up my name and became servant. If anyone needs me I will be in the bathroom...crying my eyes out in a hot bath with that bottle of ibuprofen wishing there was a director screaming "Take 2!" Hope everyone else had a great day.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Not feeling so hot

My noisy neighbors last night kept me up until one in the morning. My dd was sick from school but no buts about it she is going tomorrow! My hubby is finally getting over his cold but now I feel weak and naseous. I guess that is the way it is mommy gets it last.

Life is going great so far. Lil Ro is getting so big so fast. He said his sisters name clear as a bell yesterday! I am so proud of them. Life is short live it hard.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Mi Princesa

My Big Dreamer

Cough Cough Cough

That is what is going on with my family right now. Even the baby. Ibuprofen is their best friend. What stinks is I know next week the same virus will knock me on my butt.
Roana missed school today so I was home with all 3 of them. I am ready for mommy and ro-n time.

I am very concerned about a irl friend of mine. Her name is Janet and next Thursday she is having surgery for her digestive tract. Please keep her in your prayers as she is one of the few people I have left in this world.

I am loving AI right now. It makes me crack up. I am so happy right now. My kids are semi good and dh is going to try to work tomorrow. We will see how that goes.

Strange thing happened today though. My sister who wants nothing to do with me has called twice. I have not answered as I know even if we talk that it will start all over again. I want to scream just let me be...we are happy. Oh well. Not that much today but wanted to check in. See yall on the flip side.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

This Is My Time

Right now as the clock hits 9:00 I can finally sit down and relax before a long evening. My son is curled up on his side cup sitting at his side and Ro is laying in bed snoring quietly. I can zone out and enjoy a few moments of quiet. This is my time. My time to reflect on the days (or lack of) events. I can share what is going on with the world.

I cannot comprehend how these pharmaceutical businesses stay in business. My poor hubby is taking Tylenol cold & flu, TheraFlu, Ibuprofen and even rubbing Vick's all over his body (don't mine that part wink wink) but none of it is really helping. All it does is knock him out. I guess that is helping though as to my knowledge he is attempting a day at work tomorrow.

I am still amazed at my daughter. Today I told myself focus on her after school so I put my terrible toddler in the room with daddy and shut the door and sat with her at the dining room table. She cried because she had two spelling assignments and math and reading homework. I looked at her and told her straight-faced that "You are smart baby and they need to challenge you". She read a book to me for 20 minutes and some of the words she could sound out amazed me such as "Lake Titicaca" and Inca Kingdom. She is blossoming and I pray she knows how much she amazes me.

This morning my terrorist stole my heart too. When hubby got up to attempt a normal day he heard his dad leave. He slipped off his bed came running into my room and curled up beside me. He even grabbed my arm and placed it around him. I love my munchkin. He can brighten my day by the slightest thing. The poor soul though right now is breaking in his final molars so he is cranky and I think he is catching a bit of daddy's cold.

I have been bawling all day today. First I was watching lifetime while DH napped and I was watching a show about a lady who had a preemie who developed cancer planned her husband and nurse to get together after her death. I cried at first for the tiny birth, then the diagnosis of cancer, then the letters she wrote. My I just cried and cried. Hubby even saw me. Then this evening we rented the movie with the rock in it. The game plan. Oh my goodness. I loved this movie. It made me bawl too. I think AF is just around the corner.

Life is going forward. We are learning and loving. We are relying on each other more and more and making decisions together. I can honestly say for the first time in this marriage Rogelio and I have no outside influences influencing us. Our children are flourishing and you know life is not half bad.

When you look at the negative in this world and then the positive in my life you know its not worth it. All we can do is live life it was meant to be...With someone you love and happily.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Sick Hubby and less internet

You know how men can be. My poor husband is sick with the flu this weekend and I will not be online much. When my baby gets sick he gets really sick. So for the weekend besides shopping a little we spent most of our time in bed under the covers sleeping or zoning out in front of the tv. Hey I will sacrifice whatever I can to make him better. So if you all dont hear from me for a couple of days its not because I left its because my baby is sick. Have a great day!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Time to Move On

So I am coming to peace with a few things right now and I am going to only look forward. 2008 is supposed to be the year of new starts for me. Here is my thing. Yesterday Rogelio and I had a long talk. We both long for bigger and better things. I really really want to become a social worker but here in the Springs there is not much to be done and I am stuck in a rut. My hubby wants to become an engineer and a guy at his work has taken him under his wing. So I think it is coming down to what it has been coming down to for the last 9 years. We are seriously thinking of leaving Colorado. I long for sandy beaches and for fresh fruit year round. I long for the mountains and a yard for my children to play in. I long for family who stands by me thick and thin. I long for my home, my place I can finally become all I can be. Yea I know it sounds dumb. I am going to be 28 and I am thinking of just leaving all this behind. But with most of the stuff we are going through really there is not much to leave behind. I long to go to California. I long to be with my in laws. I long for undeniable support...maybe then I wouldnt hold onto a dream of perfection in this world.

My children are making me so proud. Roana is trying her best to tolerate her brother but honestly at 2 he is a royal terror. We went to a segunda and I scored her & him some very nice clothing. I also picked up my son a barbie guitar but he loves it. I then went to kmart and scored BIG. I got 7 plug ins, 1 hairbrush set and a flat iron for the whopping amount of 6.45! I love bargain hunting and I love the fact my dd helps find bargains with me. LoL

She is doing so good in school. I told her today baby you are smart dont listen to idiots. Yes people in the past have put her down because she has been silent but this year she blossomed from a bud to a beautiful flower. She makes me so proud and I have to remind myself that I need to tell her.

Rogelito is growing so fast. I am a terrible mommy with him. He still had bottles. But tonight I said enough is enough. I bought 6 sippys and dh and I agree that he can have 1 at night till 2. He did really good. He cracks me up. He says "Tanks." and he is a big boy that doesnt want to be carried around. Today he even picked out his own outfit. Where did my precious baby go? Why do they have to grow so fast?

That leads me to baby fever. I think I want another baby. I am terrified about it but I think one more baby would be it. I envision myself with a child end of this year or next depending what happens with this move. I am ready to complete my family and that unborn child holds my heart strings. Sounds crazy I know but I know up above that baby child is waiting to be sent and says God she will be my mom. She is not perfect but you know she is mine. I will have to seriously talk to Ro cause as I have said before my iud would be an issue for now. (But I have a friend who got pregnant on one) LoL

Well that is what is going on with me right now. My hopes and dreams. I hope you all enjoy. Ro and I are good thanks for looking. Good night and God Bless!

Friday, January 18, 2008

I am Elmo???

You Are Elmo

Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do!

You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing.

You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you.

How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Family Time

So these last couple of days I have sat down and thought a lot of things. I realize that my kids and husband are most important to me! All the other things are just minor details. I am sharing my life and documenting my trials. I am ready to let everyone who cares be part of my crazy journey.

Yesterday cracked me up. As I was wasting some time on here my lil Ro decided to play peek-a-boo with the puppy. As I grabbed the camera he stopped and I realized he is the light that completes me.

I then last night had a parent teacher conference. I am ashamed to think that my daughter is not as bright as others in her class. I turn around and the teacher puts me in my place. The year is halfway over and she is exceeding. She is already reading at a 2nd grade level and is right on mark with everything else. She needs some help with math but I know with my guidance she will be ok.

I am going to focus on beauty and happiness. I am going to cherish each moment. I have been blessed with a wonderful family and husband and I am not going to lose them. So wonderful readers....welcome to a new improved me. I promise...all drama is left off here. Have a great day!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

To the chicken who claims to know me

The only reason I tried to sign up for your exclusive group Miss Anonymous was so I could see why you were so interested in my blog. I just wanted to know whose lives revolve around mine. I didn't want to let you all down. LOL! That is fine but to accuse people of trying to hack into it, is ridiculous. I do not have the time for that silliness.

I was just wondering why you have the interest in me but do not have interest in getting to know me. I know reason you did not accept me is not I am white, but as you are "women of color" I was wondering why you didn't accept me. Could it be you are secretly jealous of me?????

I am sorry to break it to you guys as we all know nothing on the Internet is 100% private. I know the locations because most of you shared them recently with quite a few people. I can put two and two together you know. I know who is who and who has good intentions coming here.

If you are going to be brave enough to sign my comments please be brave enough to sign your names. Pansy's! Oh that's alright I have my ways of finding out. Just let me know why I am not good enough to be one of you but you are good enough to check me out.

P.S. If you have enough time to check this out please know the address thing was pure bullshit ok?

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Welcome to my Life WomenofColorBBC!!!!!

I have this thing on my page that produces live feed from where you guys are and when you showed up. I find it very interesting that people who don't give a damn about my life now find me fascinating. The same people who think I am a lower form of species.

Welcome! I am glad I can entertain you with my daily thoughts and fears. You say you hate people like me but yet I appear fascinating. You say you have a life outside of Internet but yet you prey on me! This is hilarious to me.

You know I have references and can pretty much figure out who each of you are from your location. I am good enough to be referenced but when I try to join your group you ask me to please let you be! Hhhhmmmmm that is not fair is it? You can view my page but you hide behind privacy like pansy's.
I am not going to give up my friends, just because you think you are better then them!

So what I am not a "woman of Color". Look at my daughter she is certainly not "Blanca". My DH he is not "Blanco" either last time I checked. Believe it or not because of who I love I suffer every day! You would know that if you really knew me!

Why is race such a big thing in this world today. You are only showing how close minded you are by frequenting this page and other "Latina by heart pages" just to joke about them behind our backs!

So keep hiding behind your private group, it only shows how fake you are. I will not hide. I am not ashamed! I am Latina at heart and proud of it. You say you have lives but you keep nosing in mine. I may not have a Bachelors or Masters degree but I do know how to put things together. I know who you are so please stop. You do not know me so leave me be in peace. I think honestly you should mind your own business.

If any of you know what I did wrong besides side with a friend and be born the wrong skin tone could you please clue me in? I will respond to all comments and you can email me at alottaluv at hotmail dot com! I know how the Internet works it goes both ways.

I am sad that I went from defending my Latina status to now find out what is wrong with my Blanca status.

Hello Out there

Life is great. I am in a better mood and I am sleeping well. There is some drama going on but not enough to make me miserable. So now I have seen my blog is taking off. Why don't you all stop and say hi? Leave a name and I will be happy to say hello to each one of you...have a great day

Saturday, January 12, 2008

A thin Line betweent love and hate?

I have always heard this expression but lately I am beginning to understand it. For example my dh and I always have little arguments but today I really felt like banging his head against the wall. A couple of days ago he asked me to use any resource to get our friends deposit money back. I posted a complaint to the BBB and then I proceeded to go to ripoff reports and file a complaint there too. Well he had me file these without the knowlege of our friend. So now I am in a flurry trying to cancel them both. It stinks though as I was up several hours trying to do these. I told him then I am tired of his treatment towards me. I deserve respect. When I decided to stay home with the kids did not give him a free pass to sit on his butt all day and act like a child himself. I know tomorrow I will love him again but tonight I am sickened by his behaviour.

Then don't get me started on my sister. She is a piece of work. Yea so what my kid is overweight and so what they are not always 100% clean. They are kids let them be. Then honestly ladies in my past I was arrested for domestic violence. I never told you guys that. So was my dh. We went to our classes and have learned to manage our anger. It was the most humbling time of both our lives. Well her husband is now saying I am not a true parent. So you know what ladies I lost it. I completely lost it. I posted this blog on myspace...

A marriage of convenience?
Current mood: devious
Category: Life

Some people say I am in a marriage of convenience. I am proud to say this is a Bold Faced Lie!!!!!! Rogelio and I proudly state we met online. We are not ashamed! Granted we were never traditionally engaged (if you call engagement losing your virginity in your husbands childhood room) or that we did not have a drama filled wedding (but yea we love our drama filled myspace). We chose to be together. We never played make believe running around making kissy faces at each other. We did not Force each other to stay together because he took care of me when my parents would not! We have met in the middle and we are soul mates. Unlike some other posers (especially one who according to his Wife wanted to get up close and personal with a Man's chorizo (sausage for nonspanish speakers)). I can also say my husband has Only slept with me in every aspect of the word (he NEVER slept with another Woman in a hotel room and ignored my calls). I can Trust my husband as he has never signed up with a dating (well sex finder) service such as adult finders. I am sorry no matter what that is not game. Try to earn the trust back it will never happen.

If it is a crime to be happily married with two children I enjoy on a daily basis then I am guilty and would not want it any other way. These beautiful healthy children that will never know the word "step parent"or will have to worry about choosing between mommy or daddy. That is what being A Parent is truly about. We are the typical marriage and I will shove it in your face (I quit caring a long time ago what you think).

So you hate me strong word for a Pansy who can't even stand up to her husband. What goes around comes around! Karma is a witch.

Its snowing here right now, and we wanted to take our kids to see the elephants play in the snow, but I don't think we have to go to see them, I can just log in here... Thanks you guys, you saved me the admission...

Don't play with fire or I will burn you back. Burn Baby Burn! Flame on...back to your regularly scheduled programs...

Yea it was a little harsh but you know my heart hurt and like an animal being attacked I had to lash out. My life is different now. you cant say something bad without expecting to get a little repercustions. I don't know. Maybe I am just becoming a mean person.

Sometimes ladies let me be honest with you. Cause I know here I will not be judged or yelled at. I sometimes wish I could just disappear...not die or anything but fade away. My children are not good enough and I am not good enough. I can't do anything right and the only time I am needed is when someone else cant do it. I feel like a ghost sometimes. I feel very empty and unfullfilled. I don't know maybe its because all the ties to my family are gone but honestly I dont want them back. Who knows maybe post partum depression happens almost 2 years later. I try to look at the bright side but I think sometimes it is inevitable.

Please don't worry about me. I hope this is only temporary. Its days like this I really miss my mom. The only one who could truly comprehend what I am going through. I sometimes talk to her in my head and then usually that night something strange happens around me. Lets see if she visits tonight. I hope I can break this funk and that I finally get the kudos I deserve. Life is too short. Its time I live it.

I have now crossed that line between love and hate...I think I have to hate myself enough to love myself.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Today Is A New Day

Today I am going to take time to focus on the positive. I am going to write about beauty. I have found great friends online and I want to take the time to appreciate them all.

Anelys: You are very sweet and one of my best friends. I don't know what I did right to get you into my life but I am very fortunate to have found you. Thanks for being like a sister to me when my real one turned me away.

Kelly: You are a very strong woman. You are a great mother and an inspiration to me. You think almost everything through before it happens but also are not afraid to put your foot down. You came out on vacation and did not hesistate to stay when love smacked you down. Even if you did not know what was going to happen. You inspire me so much. I would love to be half the woman you are one day.

Danielle: You are a great mami and deserve the uttermost credit. I pray one day we can meet soon.

Samy: You also inspire me. You knew things were wrong and decided to stand up for your children your strength helps show me I can pull it off too.

Nicole: You are awesome woman. You make me cheer for you when good things happen and cry when bad things too. You are a great mom and I know your daughter will thank you one day.

Jennifer: You help make it easier to face the day without my dh. You show me that love is all you need and distance is nothing when you are truly in love. You are a true inspiration.

Erica: You have gone through alot of trials with your df. But I am so glad to have met you. You are strong and beautiful. You make me smile and I am glad I can call you friend.

Meghan: You are so sweet and make me laugh. I know I can relate to you in all aspects. I know you are a great mom and wife and I inspire to be like you too.

Heather: Girl you have travelled the world. You have moved from place to place to see Ze succeed. You are an amazing woman. You have two beautiful children and you handle it like nothing for the most part. You have the patience of a saint.

Carrie: I know you dont blog but I know you read mine. You sweetie are my best friend. You helped let me know I am strong and dont need to put up with their bull crap. You inspire me to be a stronger woman and let me know I matter no matter what they may say. I pray we stay friends forever.

My other bbc friends: you listen to me laugh and cry. You make me smile and take my side. Seriously ladies you really rock. You make my day and help complete me.

I am sorry for the cheesy letter ladies but today I had to sit down and let it all out. You need to show people you appreciate them or how will they know it. God bless everyone and have a great day.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Migraine headache and sick kids

So it has led to this. Today I have a migraine. One of those that make you throw up. Then my dd woke up and decided to worship the porceline god herself. My house is so entertaining today. I am going to have to clean it spotless on top of things because my hubby decided to let a friend come over. Oh yeah baby so excited...hint of sarcasm. Then I called him to let him know what is going on and he had the nerve to get mad at me. He said please email me because the guys tease me for the phone ringing for me so much. But then I am spending too much time online...grr damned if i do damned if I dont! Sorry we have a family. Well that is it for today. Please keep an eye out for this guy I posted as missing his family is really scared.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Please help Missing Person

A friend of mine on a board I frequent has a missing brother.
He appears to be depressed and has every lead so far is dead ins.
If you have any info please contact your local police station or this police station 847-599-7000

Here is the info Missing since Jan 7th from the Gurnee, Illinois area
Jeffrey Steven Standeven (goes by Jeff)
6'3 about 200 lbs
hazel eyes, brown hair
wears glasses
may still have a full beard, has psoriasis and it's usually fairly visible on his hands and face
driving: 1997 White Ford Crown Victoria, license 6399546
Here is a pic:


This is the number of their local police station if you have any information Gurnee is 847-599-7000

He was found near texas...waiting for friends update

Monday, January 7, 2008

My poor buckeyes

They got creamed. I can understand now how the cub fans feel every year that they just make it. Two years in a row. Very embarassing. I even took some tylonel but forget it was pm so I did not make it to second half. Oh well there is always next year right?

We got more snow tonight. I can see myself here for life sometimes but I guess sometimes you have to move on to be better for family. We will see how the cards fall in the next months. 2008 is going to be a big year mark my words.

Roana is going to school tomorrow. I cannot wait. Just mommy and bubba time...I will keep everyone in the loop. Sorry so short. Just a little down today...hugs to all.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Sorry I have been a gloomy Gus lately

I have decided from this point on I will focus on the positive. I asked him what he asked about the ex. He told me he didn't ask his friend offered the information. He said she lost a lot of weight and has 5 kids and is doing drugs. I guess he didn't know Ro wanted to marry her and she declined! Opps now I feel bad for pooring ice water on Rogelio. LoL His friend also told Rogelio he chose the right woman for him. I cannot believe it. He said I am very family oriented, adore him and gave it all up. Plus his family for the most part loves me. I guess we all get a little insecure when it comes to exes. I did not look up my ex. I knew that would only cause problems. I just need to be more secure in our relationship. You guys are right he has never cheated, he adores me and we have a beautiful family. He is not going anywhere unless it is mutual.

Today we were supposed to go to pueblo but when I woke up in the morning about 4 inches of snow covered the ground. I do not think so. It is not worth it. I emailed the lady I was supposed to pick up some things from freecycle from and she emailed me back. She told me she did not care that the snow was bad that she was going to donate the stuff today if I did not pick it up. I am not going to risk our lives for free stuff. Sorry. Grr sometimes they can be pains.

We took the dog and kids out to play in the snow. It took me 20 minutes to dress lil ro. He had a blast and did not mind all the clothes. I made tortas for lunch. All in all it was a easy day but very very nice. Big Ro and I talked alot today. He told me he adores me and wants to be with me for the rest of our lives. We are planning a vacation in March. Where I am not exactly sure. We are thinking Ohio to look for a place to live in the next year or California to visit his mom. Ideally I would love to go to tennessee. I want to visit my mother's gravesite. I miss her alot lately. I miss her smile and her warm eyes. I miss the smell of her smokeladen clothing and her scratchy voice. I swear when things get rough I can feel her around me. Wow...growing up I didn't think I did not need her and now that I am grown up I can not live without her. She is my inspiration and I strive to be like her. One day ladies I will tell you all everything that has ever happened.

Right now all I can say is take it day by day. Never doubt your love and try to keep your chin high. I love you all thanks for listening. Enjoy the pics of the kids today


Saturday, January 5, 2008

Can't we Just Be family?

Well today was a very long day. I actually went off on big Ro. I told him in no such terms I am tired of it all. Sometimes I need a break too. To my surprise he took Ro-n in another room and Roana to hers and I had a whole 15 minutes to myself. I spent it online of course but it was worth it.

The Big Ro got a call from our BFF she had to go to a car dealership and needed a translator. I had him drop the kids and I at the mall so they could play happily. It was there I realized alot of things. I forgot my camera for one so no cute pictures of the kiddos playing on the big foam cars. Then I looked around as Ro-N screamed and played happily. My husband was not at my side. I was lonely. All the other mommies had their men to pick up the babies and I was by myself. I do not want to be a single mom. I did not sign up for that.

I do not want to be neglected I guess. But I am learning my hubby was raised to be at a friends beckoning. It gets lonely being me sometimes. I guess that is why I cling so tightly to my invisible friends. I am so excited ladies. A friend of mine from Lil Ro's birthboard may be moving close to me in a few months. I will finally have someone who I can relate too. I can finally have a friend with kids close to age with mine. I will finally be accepted and have another confidante.

Grr I need to vent again...So sorry. My husband lately has been talking to an old friend online. Well they switched numbers and they were talking tonight. Rogelio asked about his ex girlfriend. The one he lied to me about never having. You see when we first met he said he was not involved with anyone. Then after I moved in on his birthday this woman called him. I talked to our room mates and they showed me letters from her and everything. I was hurt. Honestly I never got over it. I married him but now that he is inquiring about her it pisses me off! Respect me....grrr I know its history but dont inquire I am sooooo tempted to find my ex and find out how he is...just to give him a taste of his own medicine. I am so mad!

Oh well, life is short. I just gotta live it to the most. My life is not that bad...just sometimes a little lonely. Thanks for caring and god bless. I will try to update daily.

Friday, January 4, 2008

Family Shamily

So my wonderful family is at it again on myspace. I went to a board and asked for advice and they advised me to order a cease and decease letter for them. I am saddened that my sister allows her husband to go that low. We were supposed to be blood and I am now learning the truth.

I didnt tell you guys about what happened last? Well my dh is mexican and who cares right? Apparently they do...they keep saying things like Ro, Ro, Ro your boat back across the border. Well he has been married to me 9 years he is not going anywhere. Jerks. They also posted racial jokes. I know I know stop paying attention. I am just mexican by heart but it still hurts. Grrrr.

This last couple of days are showing me who is who. In light of drama on one board I have seen who is who. I will not let them tell me who I can be friends with. On another note, my bff made me gorgeous cards for Christmas. Also my friends here in the springs gave me way too much stuff for christmas. They gave me cologne (Jlo Still and another one), a pair of jeans and a nice sweater, they gave our family a blanket and gave dh a Polo jacket and the kids some things too. Also we went down to Pueblo and we had a nice time down there. My kiddos are doing great. 3 days till school and i am so ready. Also 3 days till the big Game. GO BUCKS!

A friend of mine on another board may be moving down here with me and if she does we will definately have to have a meet up. I am very excited to make my board ladies more then just my board ladies. LoL

Oh well Im just jammering now. Enjoy these pics of the little ones.






Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Happy 2008!

Whoever thought that spending the evening cooped up in your apartment could be the best start to the year ever. Rogelio and I had plans to hang out with of bff here in the springs but plans changed because my amiga has the blues. My sil invited us over but honestly imagine a 20 month old, 3 year old and 2 7 year olds...not fun at all. Last time we were there Ro-n got a scar. So at 7 we started our little hoorah. I opened a corona for Ro with limon y sal and toasted him with a big glass of mountain dew. It was beautiful. The kids curled up on the couch and we watched a movie. At 930 roana got very tired. We told her we love you honey it is 2008 somewhere and off she went to baby boy made it up until 1030 from there on it was just us two lovebirds. We made it. 2008...our 9th new years together. I remember 9 years ago he sent me packing to Ohio but my heart sang for him and 1 week later I made it back to him and I have never turned back.

On another note when does school start again??? These 2 are driving me bonkers I love them but I swear If I hear my name again I am going bonkers. Well that is it for today. More this evening I am sure