Sorry I have been a gloomy Gus lately

I have decided from this point on I will focus on the positive. I asked him what he asked about the ex. He told me he didn't ask his friend offered the information. He said she lost a lot of weight and has 5 kids and is doing drugs. I guess he didn't know Ro wanted to marry her and she declined! Opps now I feel bad for pooring ice water on Rogelio. LoL His friend also told Rogelio he chose the right woman for him. I cannot believe it. He said I am very family oriented, adore him and gave it all up. Plus his family for the most part loves me. I guess we all get a little insecure when it comes to exes. I did not look up my ex. I knew that would only cause problems. I just need to be more secure in our relationship. You guys are right he has never cheated, he adores me and we have a beautiful family. He is not going anywhere unless it is mutual.

Today we were supposed to go to pueblo but when I woke up in the morning about 4 inches of snow covered the ground. I do not think so. It is not worth it. I emailed the lady I was supposed to pick up some things from freecycle from and she emailed me back. She told me she did not care that the snow was bad that she was going to donate the stuff today if I did not pick it up. I am not going to risk our lives for free stuff. Sorry. Grr sometimes they can be pains.

We took the dog and kids out to play in the snow. It took me 20 minutes to dress lil ro. He had a blast and did not mind all the clothes. I made tortas for lunch. All in all it was a easy day but very very nice. Big Ro and I talked alot today. He told me he adores me and wants to be with me for the rest of our lives. We are planning a vacation in March. Where I am not exactly sure. We are thinking Ohio to look for a place to live in the next year or California to visit his mom. Ideally I would love to go to tennessee. I want to visit my mother's gravesite. I miss her alot lately. I miss her smile and her warm eyes. I miss the smell of her smokeladen clothing and her scratchy voice. I swear when things get rough I can feel her around me. Wow...growing up I didn't think I did not need her and now that I am grown up I can not live without her. She is my inspiration and I strive to be like her. One day ladies I will tell you all everything that has ever happened.

Right now all I can say is take it day by day. Never doubt your love and try to keep your chin high. I love you all thanks for listening. Enjoy the pics of the kids today