When it Rains it Pours

I swore to everyone I would not post a blog until it was positive. I really want to be upbeat in this blog but I now know this is impossible this week. I am sick as a dog and I cannot shake it. I am coughing, feel nauseous and worse of all have a headache. To make matters worse I got bad news yesterday. A friend on my son's baby board passed away. I am saddened by this because her children will not know their mother the way we did.

Then of Course Mr. Ro turned into an ass. Our friend is having surgery today and I am worried for her too. Last night I had to spank my Ro-N he was jumping on our bed and making a ruckus. He said "I do not believe in hitting babies." Yeah right unless they are standing in front of the television in the middle of your xbox game right? Now he is saying I'm ungrateful when he works hard for us. God I am just tempted to leave. Take my shit and go and never look back.

When anyone else is sick they get babied me I have to suck it up and be a woman. We have not even done the deed in over 3 weeks now and I have to beg for it like a pathetic teenager. Even then its excuse after excuse. Am I that repulsive? RIght now I am losing my mind. My head hurts and Im sick of cosleeping. I need my space and for some reason these kids think the bed is all thiers. I give up. I think they would all be better off without me. I need some time to think. It figures the day I need someone to cry with noone is around. Lets all pray this day gets better. Thanks for looking.