Labor Day, what a blast?

So daddy had the day off today. I love it when we can sleep in past six AM. We laid in bed and chatted about life and the mistakes that have happened since we got together. The kids heard us and came screaming in our room and jumped into the bed with us. We took the dogs out to do their business then headed over to a park we had not been to in awhile.

The kids ran like wild bansees and played very hard. In Roana's new lunch box I packed 4 pears, 2 oranges and 3 bottled waters. We ate our pears and drank our water and just took in the good times. I sometimes wonder if I give my kids enough. I feel bad when i have to tell them no on something they want. But then I think. I am giving them memories and love and truly is that not the most important thing besides food and water.

Most of our day was spent chillaxing in the apartment. We played the xbox 360 and chomped on the food around the house. Of course we got some tacos for dinner. Sometimes the best days are just the days where you wing it.

Big Ro and I talked about his sister and life as she knows it. We have not talked to her in 2 weeks but I have to get in touch with her. Things are so different now and its not even funny. I love Maria. She is the best sister a girl could ask for. I called her crying one day and she made me feel 100 times better. I am so blessed in this life. I am healthy, happy and have the world's greatest family. What more could a woman want? Nothing I tell you. If I died tomorrow I would truly be happy and that my friends is the best feeling in the world.

Please excuse the purple neck. My son was playing with markers and I did not realize it was there. LoL

This Is My Time

Right now as the clock hits 9:00 I can finally sit down and relax before a long evening. My son is curled up on his side cup sitting at his side and Ro is laying in bed snoring quietly. I can zone out and enjoy a few moments of quiet. This is my time. My time to reflect on the days (or lack of) events. I can share what is going on with the world.

I cannot comprehend how these pharmaceutical businesses stay in business. My poor hubby is taking Tylenol cold & flu, TheraFlu, Ibuprofen and even rubbing Vick's all over his body (don't mine that part wink wink) but none of it is really helping. All it does is knock him out. I guess that is helping though as to my knowledge he is attempting a day at work tomorrow.

I am still amazed at my daughter. Today I told myself focus on her after school so I put my terrible toddler in the room with daddy and shut the door and sat with her at the dining room table. She cried because she had two spelling assignments and math and reading homework. I looked at her and told her straight-faced that "You are smart baby and they need to challenge you". She read a book to me for 20 minutes and some of the words she could sound out amazed me such as "Lake Titicaca" and Inca Kingdom. She is blossoming and I pray she knows how much she amazes me.

This morning my terrorist stole my heart too. When hubby got up to attempt a normal day he heard his dad leave. He slipped off his bed came running into my room and curled up beside me. He even grabbed my arm and placed it around him. I love my munchkin. He can brighten my day by the slightest thing. The poor soul though right now is breaking in his final molars so he is cranky and I think he is catching a bit of daddy's cold.

I have been bawling all day today. First I was watching lifetime while DH napped and I was watching a show about a lady who had a preemie who developed cancer planned her husband and nurse to get together after her death. I cried at first for the tiny birth, then the diagnosis of cancer, then the letters she wrote. My I just cried and cried. Hubby even saw me. Then this evening we rented the movie with the rock in it. The game plan. Oh my goodness. I loved this movie. It made me bawl too. I think AF is just around the corner.

Life is going forward. We are learning and loving. We are relying on each other more and more and making decisions together. I can honestly say for the first time in this marriage Rogelio and I have no outside influences influencing us. Our children are flourishing and you know life is not half bad.

When you look at the negative in this world and then the positive in my life you know its not worth it. All we can do is live life it was meant to be...With someone you love and happily.

Today Is A New Day

Today I am going to take time to focus on the positive. I am going to write about beauty. I have found great friends online and I want to take the time to appreciate them all.

Anelys: You are very sweet and one of my best friends. I don't know what I did right to get you into my life but I am very fortunate to have found you. Thanks for being like a sister to me when my real one turned me away.

Kelly: You are a very strong woman. You are a great mother and an inspiration to me. You think almost everything through before it happens but also are not afraid to put your foot down. You came out on vacation and did not hesistate to stay when love smacked you down. Even if you did not know what was going to happen. You inspire me so much. I would love to be half the woman you are one day.

Danielle: You are a great mami and deserve the uttermost credit. I pray one day we can meet soon.

Samy: You also inspire me. You knew things were wrong and decided to stand up for your children your strength helps show me I can pull it off too.

Nicole: You are awesome woman. You make me cheer for you when good things happen and cry when bad things too. You are a great mom and I know your daughter will thank you one day.

Jennifer: You help make it easier to face the day without my dh. You show me that love is all you need and distance is nothing when you are truly in love. You are a true inspiration.

Erica: You have gone through alot of trials with your df. But I am so glad to have met you. You are strong and beautiful. You make me smile and I am glad I can call you friend.

Meghan: You are so sweet and make me laugh. I know I can relate to you in all aspects. I know you are a great mom and wife and I inspire to be like you too.

Heather: Girl you have travelled the world. You have moved from place to place to see Ze succeed. You are an amazing woman. You have two beautiful children and you handle it like nothing for the most part. You have the patience of a saint.

Carrie: I know you dont blog but I know you read mine. You sweetie are my best friend. You helped let me know I am strong and dont need to put up with their bull crap. You inspire me to be a stronger woman and let me know I matter no matter what they may say. I pray we stay friends forever.

My other bbc friends: you listen to me laugh and cry. You make me smile and take my side. Seriously ladies you really rock. You make my day and help complete me.

I am sorry for the cheesy letter ladies but today I had to sit down and let it all out. You need to show people you appreciate them or how will they know it. God bless everyone and have a great day.

My Baby is A Big Girl

I can hardly believe that 7 years ago I was in the Hospital. I had went in for my weekly test and my doctor showed me a little concern. She sent me right in for an ultrasound and my water was a little low. I was terrified. I picked up the courtesy phone and dialed my husbands cell phone. The conversation went like this.



"Baby can you leave work?"

"No honey why?"

" The doctor needs to talk to us. OMG I need to be admitted for surveilence. I am scared baby"

"Why?"

"If they cant get my fluids up, we will have her new years eve? That is if my water isn't broken."

" Ok baby I will be right there"



I am imagining the worse and crying here in the office all these new or soon to be moms must think I am losing it. He comes rushing through the doors and we talk to our OBGYN. She looks at me and says Susan you have to go. With the hypertension and things we must look out for you. You see the baby wasnt due until 1-22 according to everything. I was thinking I am having a preemie.



We walked into the er and told them I am 36 weeks pregnant and my fluid is low. They had me sit down into the wheelchair and off I was to my private room. I was terrified as they hooked me up the iv's and ro held my hand. I was famished and told them. The nurse took Ro into the hallway and told him I could have no food until the dr was talked to and he was busy in an emergency c-section. I started crying and my sweet husband picked up the phone and called the office. The nurse then called and told them I needed nourishment and to send some food right away.

At 9 pm the doctor came into my room. Rogelio was about to go home for the evening and she started an evaluation. She checked my cervix and I was partially dialated. She then said ok you do seem a little damp and she tested the fluids. The strip quickly turned dark blue. She turned to me and told me I have good news and bad news for you...You are having this baby tonight. I had not even packed my suitcase. I still had 3.5 weeks left. It was crazy.

They added another iv in with my pitocin. They turned on the medicine. The contractions started almost immediately. They also added in the antibiotics for her so just in case.

We picked up the phone to tell my sister in law to bring my mother in law down. She told me they would be down first thing in the morning as most labor last days. I knew this would be quick. At 12 they came in and checked me I was 5 cen dialated. She honestly was hurting like a son a witch too. They asked if I wanted relief. Hell ya I did. Up came the anestheisologist and he poked me in the back 6 times. He then advised me to find an alternate route as the spaces in my back are too small. I then asked for medication which brought me sweet relief for the next couple of centimeters.

Finally at 8 centimeters the back spasms started. I started wailing for hubby to come over and relieve me. He looked helplessly at that clock it stated 142 am and rubbed my back almost in tears himself. Honestly for the next 30 minutes all I remember is the back pain.

At 212 I screamed at rogelio. Please I need to go to the bathroom. The nurse told him she would have to check me if I felt the need to go and I threatened to potty on her. She came in and checked me. I was fully dialated. I was exhausted and disappointed at the same time. She then grabbed my obgyn and she came in full force. She had to give me a episotomy and helped me out. It was a hard 30 minute labor but finally at 242 am on this day I got blessed relief. I looked down into that beautiful face with an oxygen mask and saw a little of myself. I fell in love different from my husband but an unconditional love.

Now here I sit 7 years later and amazingly the pain did not seem that bad. I see her movements and desire to please me. I see her troubles, tears, disappointments and joys. I thank her for giving my first oppurtunity of many to become a mom. The most rewarding and joyous life I could have asked for. My beautiful daughter. Thank you for completing my life.

Christmas Was Great

Christmas Eve we went to a party with some good friends of ours. It was at a little cantina. I have never experienced anything like it. The kids were running around very happy and the band played as the ladies danced and danced. Everyone was so happy and that is the way Christmas is supposed to be and the way I want to remember it. It never ceases to amaze me that good friends and good food can make the day. We had birria, frijoles ranchera and fruit. Very simple but oh so delicious. Rogelio and I did not dance as we spent most of the time keeping Coronas out of the reach of my Rogelito. LoL







There are the pics of my lil angel and demon.

So Christmas day the kids woke up. I was anxious to see their reaction. Rogelito ran over to his four wheeler and would not give it up. It was a small Christmas but full of love. For dinner we decided not to cook. We braved the snow. (Yes in Colorado for the most part all our Christmas's are white) and drove over to our local chinese food. It was delicious. We had crab legs, coconut shrimp and all the works. Plus no clean up for me. Finally we came home. We curled in front of our xbox 360 and played Viva Pinata Party & Simpsons. Very nice for a change. No drama. No drama for a change..Thank goodness. I only hope it stays that way.

I am in love!!!!!

So far this weekend has been wonderful! Well for the most part. Saturday we went to get chinese food and played at a park. The dog ran off to the creek again and I was soooo scared. My heart stopped. He came back after the longest 7 minutes of my life. I am sorry but in freezing temps and snow flurries if the dog wants bigger and better things he wins! But no worries he returned.

We went to a park to play with our new video camcorder. It is so nice. The pictures are vibrant and I swear it is new. I need to edit the video and post it later. LoL. I also took some pictures of my rugrats. They are nice. I love them so much. Rogelio and the kids are my main focus in life right now. Ro asked what I wanted for christmas I want them to be happy that is all.

Noone else matter noone. I do not want people to put them down. I am part of them. They can have their happiness and live their lives. We will thrive. I dont want my family's pity. Also on the contrary I will not also let other family suffer because noone deserves that. I am there for those who need me. I hope everyone is well and that you are all as blessed as I am. Thanks for looking.