2009 has to be better

Right now I am sitting her by myself while my husband slumbers and the kids snore too. I am staying up until midnight even if I am all alone. I am going to wake him up around 1130 but it is still not the same. My grandma is in the hospital tonight. She had her pinky toe removed because of a bone infection. I am very worried about her. This is the first year I have not welcomed the new year with her. I miss her so much.

I am so ready to kiss this year good bye. I know its not life changing but I know It can be better. I just need to stay positive. Right now I am crying here. I wish I could tell you everything going on right now. I will try to forget. Bury it all with 2008. Make this pain go away. I want my mom. I want to feel special again. Hugs to you all. Here comes 2009! I will continue to look up instead of down.

My 2009 Resolutions

Yesterday Big Ro had his doctors appointment. He is confirmed to have type II diabetes. The doctor would love to see him lose 20 pounds here in the next year. Our resolution is to become a better fit family. We need to live long for our children.

I am also going to call the doctor about these migraines. They are more frequent now and I checked my blood pressure it is high again. I think with the weight loss it will get better but I want a doctor to tell me.

Right now I am at 236.5. I just weighed myself a few minutes ago. I am going to eat healthier and work out more to get down to a more acceptable weight. Since I decided a lifestyle change I went down 1 pound. I can do more if I put my mind to it.

I am going to become more patient here in 2008. I am also going to find a job to help out around her. Big Ro will be going back to school. So there are our resolutions. I hope we stick to them for our sake and our kids. (Roana is down 2 pds in 2 weeks! Go Roana)

2008 In Review

Where has 2008 gone? I swear the older I get the faster time goes! It seems like just yesterday Big Ro and I had just met and fell in love and now here we are celebrating our tenth new year together. Its crazy I tell you.

January 08 was a very rough month for me. My sister and I were arguing and I was going through a rough spot with Ro. I was tired and overworked and I missed my mom. Lots of headaches and heart aches.

February 08 was a slow month. Big Ro turned 32 this year. We are getting old.

March 08: I am 28 this month. I have blessed this world now for 28 years. LoL I also went to California to visit my family. We had a blast.

April: 08 My son is now 2 years old. He is officially a toddler and a holy terror at that one.

May 08: Big Ro and I have officially been married for 9 years. It has been rough but it is worth it. Roana is out of school for the summer. I will soon have a second grader.

June 08: The start of bad times in our life. No death or divorce but Roana goes to the hospital due to bronchitis & rogelio sprains his knee this is signs of times to come.

July: My mother in law was visiting us and we loved having her. One of my childhood friends passed away from a gunshot wound obtained defending her family. RIP Carriy. Road trip! We went to Vegas to drop off MIL and Roana also went to California. It is her first cross country trip away from us.

August: Road trip! Again! This time we are off to Utah to pick Roana up. She started the 2nd grade were does time fly?

September 08: This month was terrible for me. We were in a bad car accident. Our car was totalled and this really tested our relationship. Also Lil Ro fell and broke his arm. What a month it was.

October: This was halloween. We also got a new car. Life is looking a little better now. It has now been 10 years since Rogelio and I first met online.

November: Time for turkey. Time for breaks. Life is pretty good.

December: Here we are 1 year later. Ups and downs but still a family. Little Caylee Anthony has been found and we celebrated Christmas.

2008 has been a rough year for us. I pray this year only brings us better things and more love. Hope you all have a great new years and I will see you again in 2009.

My Princess is 8!

8 years ago I had no idea what I was getting into. I was laying in my hospital bed staring at this screaming little red blob I would come to know as my daughter. I had all the hopes in the world for her. I knew with her father and I's knowlege she would become someone strong. I remember when I was told I would have her. I was terrified. I was supposed to have her on Janurary 22. She had her own plans and to this day is still this way.

I have watched her grow. She has fallen and bruised her ego and body but with my help she has gotten back up and survived. She gave me the best job ever. This job called mom. Today is not only your birthday but my anniversary. It is my 8 year mark in this journey called Parenthood. It has not been the best but I would not trade it.

Roana you never cease to amaze me. You are wonderful and the best daughter. You are so innocent but so intelligent. I wish for one moment I could look through your eyes and see the world as you do. I know you are going to be an amazing woman. No matter what you become or who you become you will always be my beautiful daughter. I cannot believe in 10 years you will be a legal adult. It seems as though just yesterday I was staring into your beautiful brown eyes for the very first time. I love you baby. I will always be your mom.
Hospital Picture

3 Months Picture

One Year Old

2 Year Old

2.5 year Old

3 Year Old

5 Year Old

7 Year Old

My 8 Year Old

An easy day

Today was more of a get the house back in order and do laundry day. You know the things most responsible people do on a daily basis. Just kidding of course. We just kind of lounged around and enjoyed ourselves. We watched a movie and talked a lot. We are doing well. I am sorry it was not more exciting but well sometimes it has to be slow.

Happy Early Birthday!

My baby girl's birthday is not technically until Monday but Daddy has to work and with it so close to the holiday parties are next to impossible. We decided to make a quick celebration here at home with her and us. We started our day by going to our favorite store. They bake fresh cakes for pretty good prices. We picked out a very cute pink cake with cherries and whipped cream. It was yellow cake and so good.

For dinner we had pizza. It is Roana's favorite. We got Papa Murphy's Chicago Stuffed pizza. It was delicious. I am taking her Monday to go shopping. I am so blessed. My baby is going to be eight. I cannot believe it. It seems like just yesterday we gave birth to her. I miss that baby. But it is amazing that she is developing into a beautiful young lady. I love her. No matter what she is that sweet angel i gave birth to.

A quick day trip

We had a wonderful Christmas. We wanted to go down to Pueblo and just get away a little while. I really wanted to go walk on the riverwalk but with the winds there was no way no how. We headed over to the mall. It was still decorated for Christmas. We found these cute animal cut outs. I am very self consious right now about my weight so no pictures from me. We are blessed that we can get away even if it is just for a little while.

On the Last Day Of Christmas My true love gave to me

Our Christmas actually started while I was still dreaming of sugarplums. Roana woke up at 330 to use the bathroom and begged her daddy to open her gifts. He relented so I missed her face of opening her most desired clarice. I know she is happy though and that is the main thing. She has been full of life all day long.


We all finally got up at 830 and lil Ro ran to the tree. His first present was a beat bag of spiderman. Not that interested. Next was Linny and Ming Ming. That was a little better. The third gift made his eyes light up. It is a t-ball set from Little tikes. He pulls out the last box and it is a basketball hoop. He actually squealled and told us. Ball dad ball sissy. Peas. He has been shooting hoops all day long. It amazes me how athletic he is. He can pratically play any sport he desires and has the physique to match. He has also developed a love for music. I do not know what he wants to become but I have a feeling he will become something great.


We finally finished our Ham and Rex got to enjoy the bone. It was worth every cent and we got 4 meals out of it. I made a cheese cake and apple pie but only had a small peice of the apple pie. We are going to celebrate Roana's birthday on Saturday my baby is going to be 8.


Big Ro is awesome. He helped me with the kiddos all day and gave me love and hugs. He helped remind me family is most important. We are so blessed. Its not the presents that matter but who we are with. I love my life it could not get much better. I finally loaded our picture...enjoy,

Merry Christmas Everyone!

I apologize for the poor spelling of the first draft. I made it quickly with 2 kids screaming. Hope you all have a great holiday.

Christmas Eve Eve

No I did not double type. Tonight is the Eve of Christmas eve. I am so excited for Christmas to be here that I can hardly sleep. I took the kiddos to the dollar store and let them shop for us. Of course Lil Ros mommy did the shopping for him but it will be great. My children understand it is the thought that counts and not the actual present. I have a feeling we may ge our white Christmas.  It was snowing when we went to the dollar store. Big Ro says we can anticipate 3 inches before morning. I have to find a place to video us. I want to make a Christmas Card. I made a cute one for Ro's work that I will include right now. The wording is deliberate as it is an inside joke at Ros work.  Where has 2008 gone? That is another post for after the holiday however. I am going to lay down right now and try to sleep. One more sleep until Santa comes.