Woo hoo Finally!

Today started out to be a not so lovely day. I woke up because I am currently 4 days late. Yep 4 days late. I woke up and could barely look out my eyes. Went to the counter and pulled out a test. I took the test and looked down. Negative. I should have known. IUD's are only 99.9999 percent effective or something like that. My heart sunk a little but honestly right now is not the right time. Our finances are messed up and we are still having some relationship struggles. We are still waiting to hear if Ro got his dream job and so on. It is not time for lil Rosalyn to make her appearance yet if she ever does. I am blessed though. I have 2 beautiful children and a pretty good man. My life is pretty close to perfect.

Today was also 1 week and 4 days into Winter vacation. We have not had a major winter storm as of yet. I miss my snow badly and we even purchased snow tires for this lovely weather. I have a bunch of local channels on my facebook and I am contantly bantering with the weathermen saying things such as "I am dreaming of brown christmas." Or "Snow...Snow? What is that? I miss it a lot. Hope you are right but probably not." Today they predicted 4-7 inches. I doubted it because it seems as if a big old bubble of heat has wrapped itself around our city. But surprisingly at 2:00 I took the trash out and what danced in front of my face? A few snow flurries. I came running in and told the kids. We threw open the blinds and watched it go from Flurries to Snow to White Out in hours. I am thankful though because this is going to help our drought situation.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve. Where in the world did 2010 go? It seems like I blinked and there it went. However good things and bad things have happened this year. Ro graduated, Roana did well in school and Lil Ro well he is just becoming a fine young man. I am very proud of my family. We are supposed to go to the store and pick up some dinner for the kids and I to celebrate Roanas big 1-0. However Ro is fearful the plows may not get out in time. I think I have one more pill left of my blood pressure. If not then I am concerned how this year is going to start out. I really need my meds but not if it is going to cause an accident. Time will tell what happens. I hope the roads clear some or we are going to be munching on 7-11 hot dogs and ding dongs for 2011. But honestly if for some reason that happens as long as I have Big Ro and the kids around it will be good. They are truly the reason for my season. Going to sign off for now. It is 11:13. I just want to become more active agian. I miss my writing and I pray I stay. Good night and remember If you can dream it, You can acheive it!

I have had this blog for 3 years now. I really need to get back on top of it.

This year has been manic. We have had a lot of ups and downs and I have had a lot of stress. This morning is my daughters tenth birthday and reality has smacked me in the face. I am 30 years old now. I have high blood pressure and am overweight. I need to get healthy for myself and my children. As much as this is going to hurt me not being able to eat nummy foods so much I really need to do this. Starting Jan 2nd I am going on a diet. I need to be strict but healthy. I need to exercise and I need to be strong. I have to become a better me. I want to live past 40 for my husband and kids. They deserve to have their mother with them. I can and will do this. I am going to start blogging again every evening for sure. My blood pressure was perfect when I put my feelings into cyberworld. I am going to do this now. I hope everyone has had a great year. I am going to be doing this more often again. Wish me luck on this journey cause here I go again with my running shoes on.

10 years Old today! Time really does fly when you are having fun!

Back in 2000 my sil announced her pregnancy to me on my husbands birthday. I was heartbroken as my dh and I had been married for almost a year and I wanted a child so badly. DH took me to a catholic church on NYE and told me to pray for whatever my heart desired and that God would grant it. I remember kneeling at the pew and tears streaming down my eyes and praying so hard for myself. I prayed so hard for a pregnancy. I forgot all about that day.

Fast forward to Mother's day 2000. We came down to Colorado Springs and went to Kmart and bought my SIL a travel system. I fell in love with it but I told Ro we had no reason for me to buy it for me. I was not with child. We took my sil to chipotle for Mothers day where they gave her a free burrito. They then asked me if I too was pregnant. I told them no...not to my knowledge. The sweet lady gave me a burrito anyway and stated "Maybe you are not pregnant right now but someday you will be a mom. Sooner or later." We finished our day with SIL and driving home from here to Denver I told dh. Hon I think I may be late. He looked at me and we stopped at Safeway. I ran in and grabbed an answer test. It quickly turned positive. My heart leapt with Joy and I called my sil. I was indeed pregnant.

On December 28th 2000 I went to the dr for my normal check up. My daughter was due on Jan 22. I never imagined what would happen next. The dr felt my uterus and told me my water felt low. She sent me to ultrasound and indeed I was very low on water. She instructed me to call my husband and go to the hospital immediately where they could hook me up on ivs for fluid. I called dh in tears and he ran home from work. He had already requested 3 weeks off the following month to stay home with us but his boss told him we could figure it out when it happened.

We got to the hospital at 2:30 they hooked me up to an iv and checked my water. My water was broken. The dr came in and told me as soon as shift changed we would do induction. 9:30 pm they started my pitocin. Those were the most painful pains I had ever had in my life. I cried for an epidural but after 6 failed attempts to put one in I decided I could go natural. At 2:35 I got the urge to push. The dr came in and I was very scared. At 2:42 am those beautiful words came out. She is perfect. Its a girl. As I gazed into those dark brown eyes and stroked her silky black hair I knew I was blessed I knew that I was going to be mom to something special.

Now 10 years down the road my tiny 7 lb 4 oz miracle is a beautiful big girl. She is going to assist teaching Spanish to primary grades, She is going to be in student council and she is on honor roll. If I had to make a list back then of the perfect child I could not have requested on more beautiful. Happy birthday my Roana Marie. You are perfect and mommy loves you. Remember if you can dream it daughter, you can achieve it. I am very proud of you!
December 29, 2000

December 2000

December 2010

Beautiful Cards and Great Prices

This year I want to send out photocards however I am very tight. I have heard about this great site called shutterfly. I am going to make my christmas cards through them and hopefully send some out to my friends and family. I am very excited to share this with you all as if you are fellow blogger you get the same deal as I do. Bloggers get 50 free cards

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I hope you will all join me and make some beautiful memories. Happy Holidays and if you want a card feel free to email me your address :-)

Another First

I am always posting about my babies and dh's first but I tend to neglect the me time. On Sunday my mouth started hurting. I told Ro I think I have popcorn caught in there. I pulled and flossed and cried and figured it would eventually make its way out of there. On Tuesday I could not take it anymore. I called Ro and told him. Honey no more I have to go to the dentist.

I called our dentist and told them my concern. They understood I had lil Ro and could not find anyone to help with him. We got on the bus and headed over to the office. I walked in the door almost 1 hour early and started shaking. I have never been to a dentist. It has been 22 years since one came and saw me at school to do fillings.

The dr takes my xrays and then has me sit down. He tells me I have pericoronitis or swollen infected gum from my impacted wisdom tooth. There is only one solution....tooth extraction. He gave me the option to come back another time but I knew in my heart knowing this issue if he sent me home I would not come back. I stared the doctor straight in the face and told him yank it out.

The procedure took less then 10 minutes and when he yanked the tooth I felt tears roll down my face. However once that tooth popped out I felt an instant relief. Yes there was still a dull pain from the tooth being removed but there was also a sense of more freedom. So that was my first. My first dentist appointment and on the 8th I am going back for a full analysis. I kept the tooth and I told Ro I was sticking it under my pillow and the tooth fairy better bring me a ring or something. Instead the tooth fairy brought me a bottle of pain killer and for that I am very grateful.

TGIF! Thank Goodness. I am going insane!

I honestly thought with 5 years apart my kids would be able to get along and ignore each other. Oh man, I was so very wrong. They still argue and fight. I pray every night they will become best friends and that I will have that family I always dreamed of. I look forward to Friday because that is a day where we become a 2 parent family. Ro works a lot so I try to give him a break because I know I would lose my mind working and dealing with us. He appreciates it and gives me the same respect on the weekends.

Today was Student Assessment Day at school so students with difficulties go in for assistance. They get the assessments they need and all other kids get the day off. Fun for them but not so much fun for us parents. The kids and I woke up around 8 and cleaned the house. We watched some Rugrats and then my own Rugrats decided to do their normal daily fighting. Ugh they are lucky they are cute.

Quickly the day heated up so I exclaimed. Ok kids Pool time! We went to the closets pulled out our gear and off we went. The kids handled it well for an hour and then other kids showed up and Lil Ro threw a fit. He screamed and carried on so I said enough lets go. He did really well though today. He swam for 30 minutes without any floatie at all. He stayed in shallow end at my request but he did it. I love watching him grow and his lil accomplishments remind me that this is the reason I had kids. Even if sometimes I could pull every single one of my hairs out.

We are cutting back

In attempt to save some money and bond closer as a family we are cutting back! We decided a couple of weeks ago that we would cancel our cable. Receiving our bill was the final note. I refuse to pay $140 to Comcast just to stare at an idiot box for hours and making my kids fight. After talking to Big Ro I decided to just cut all the cable out. We now have just internet and that is going to run us $34.95 a month. We are also subscribing to netflix and hulu. I fired the cable network and it felt really good! I honestly do not miss it all. Hubby and I are sleeping better and communicating more and Roana is reading more. I hope we still do well come winter.

Wish us luck but I am going to be happy knowing that we are saving $100 a month now.

Pow Pow, Power Wheels, Pow Pow Power Wheels! PowerWheeeels!

Lil Ro has been begging for a "tend" car. I have been scouting them on Craigslist like there is no tomorrow. Everyone wanted to sell them for anywhere from 75-150 and no way was I paying that for something he may or may not want to play with. One day by complete accident I typed in Powerwheels completely misspelled. Up came a result for a jeep that does not go in reverse for $15 obo. I emailed the lady and she said it was still available and yes she would accept $10 for it. I am so glad as he is in love. I am glad my boy likes his toy. It is a little faded but will get lots of love. I want to paint it. Ro wants to paint it black and I want to paint it like a turtle. We will see what happens in the end.

Where in the heck does time go?

Today my beautiful princess. My first born. The light in my eye. Today she started the fourth grade. I cannot believe how I feel right now. She is growing into the little lady I dreamed of right before my eyes. Someday I will look back at these pictures and cry. She walked to school full of hope and we both anxiously met her teacher. I adore her new teacher. So its a new year and I know it will be good. Here is hoping she is everything I dreamed of and more.

Finally! The day has arrived!

Today as I type this tears are streaming down my face. 18 months ago we dreamed of this moment. It was very hard for both of us but I am proud to say he did it! On this day my wonderful husband graduated. As of today he has his Associates degree! It was so wonderful when he walked down the aisle I bawled. He is an amazing man and I am so very proud. I hope you enjoy these pictures of the day that I am sharing.

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What has been going on

I hate to bore with details and this weekend was very stormy and very rainy. We ended up laying around here at the house watching movies and playing games.

My blood pressure is starting to drop thank goodness. I still have off days when it is higher then others but that is expected.

Ro is working lots of hours too. We are loving the world cup right now. Watching the games and teams make us have so much fun.

Mother in law is not doing too well right now. She has a really bad hernia under the kidney and we are waiting for approval from the insurance. They say it can take up to 6 weeks for an answer.

I have a doc.tor appointment on Tuesday. I am really hoping I can get the okay to go ahead and schedule surgery. I am getting more pains and even though I gave up soda my stomach is just not the same.

That is life right now. Will take the kids to a park tomorrow no matter what.

Not doing well right now

So I went last Tuesday to get surgery and it was a no go. My bp was way too high and they sent me to the ER instead. I am very disappointed and very scared. I think I am going to die seriously. My bp was going down some but with the meds I do not know if it really is. I will see in on the 15th how it is going.

I am exhausted but not letting the kids know. I want them to not worry about me. I hope I do better soon. I am kind of depressed right now. It is hard not to be. I wanted to blog and update. Enjoy these pictures from this weekend.

Just a Brief Update

This week has been full of ups and downs. On Friday I received the news that yes I do have gallstones and my Dr was referring me to a surgeon. I was terrified and yesterday I got to meet my surgeon. After a 30 minute discussion we both came to the conclusion that yes it does need to come out. I am going to have laproscopic surgery on Tuesday June 1st. I am a little scared but everyone I talk to says it is a piece of cake. I have never been cut before except when delivering my daughter and that was just an episiotomy or whatever its called. That healed quickly. The part that terrifies me is that they are going to put me under general anesthesia. I will be fine though I must stay positive. Today I preregistered for the surgery and Monday I will go in for my preop clearance.

On a positive note today my husband accomplished one of the biggest things in his life. No we did not get remarried. He finished his very last class. He is now a college graduate. Yes it is not official until August 14th when he wears his cap and gown but I am still glowing. I will have my husband back and my partner and it is an incredible feeling. I hope my children see how much my Ro has sacrificed to get this far but you are never to old to accomplish your dreams and get an education.

I am really looking forward to this weekend. I am not sure of our plans yet. I just wanted to do a brief update. I am trying to keep up really I am. Just so many things on my mind. I have included a few pictures of the kids so far this month. Enjoy and I will definitely keep you all up to date on the latest 3Ros episode.

Well Crap

I have been neglecting this blog again. It is very hard to keep up here and take care of two kids on my own for most of the week. But alas there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Only 1 week and 1 day until my love is finished with school. His graduation will be on August 14th but I am so glad we made it.

Mother's Day weekend was a success.  On Saturday we were driving around town getting groceries and such when Big Ro  asked are we hungry? The kids replied but of course. I looked to my left and looking back at me was Olive Garden a favorite resturaunt of mine for sure. We went in and Lil Ro behaved like a Saint. I even got to order my favorite dish Lasagna and eat every single bit of it.

Sunday we decided to BBQ. We had brats and hamburgers. The kids played on the playground while I and Ro cooked the day away. We held hands and watched the kids it was very nice.

The following morning I woke up with a pain in my side. It was in between my shoulder blades favoring the right side. I told Ro I really need to get to the doctor for this. I called our Family dr and they squeezed me in for a 330 appointment. I get there and they do all the tests. They think it is my gall bladder. I have a ultrasound tomorrow to confirm this diagnosis and if it is that I will be looking at surgery. I will be honest. I am terrified of surgery but I know I can pull through. This is what basically has happened lately. I hate to be abrupt. I will keep everyone informed when I know more details.

Going to start a new adventure and I am pretty excited.

My family and I have lived in Colorado now for almost 12 years. We really need to start doing more outdoorsy things so I am testing our abilities to survive. Today on Craigslist I requested a tent that would fit our family and soon I got a response. I got a 6 person tent for a slamming deal. We picked it up and I am so excited to take my family. Ideally I would love to go for mothers day weekend. I am weird like that however. We will see where it goes. For now I am trying to find all our supplies. I am very excited and cannot wait to sleep under the stars. Life is good and I am very excited.

A birthday Celebration not to be forgotten

Today was our family celebration. We really do not do birthday parties. To us birthdays are about celebrating your life with the ones you love who will always be there and not be just there for the moment.

Lil Ro got his wish. We went to Mr. Biggs and he got to ride the Mario Karts as he calls them. Ro took the day off and we went. Snowing hailing and raining but he had a blast. For dinner we had fried chicken. I love my kids. They complete me. Happy birthday lil Ro. I hope it was the best one yet!