Life is precious just live it.

I am sometimes one of these people who think I am invincible. I am super mom. I am super wife. I am Susan. Well today I was smacked with reality. On Monday my best friend growing up called me on the phone. She asked me if I remembered a girl named Carriy? I racked my brain then boom it hit me. I knew her she was funny, sweet and sarcastic. Who could forget her? I replied to her. Yes as a matter of fact I do remember her. I wanted to shut my ears. I knew this could not be good. She then told me our friend had been shot and was in Critical care. Some sick man who could not control his anger had taken the life of a beautiful mother, wife and friend. The poor children will have no mother and I have lost the chance to gain my friendship back with a friend.

She officially passed Yesterday when they took her off of life support. She is leaving behind four beautiful children and a loving husband. I hope those babies know their momma was a person they can be proud of. Rodney, Zachary, Corinthia "C.J, and Aleyna know your momma was an angel here on earth and if you guys turn out to be anything like her you will make the world a better place. Know that she loved you guys and that one day you will be reunited in that place called heaven. The world is a better place today because we have recieved another angel. You are loved darlings and know did not chose to leave you behind.

She was a gift to the world. The latest news was she was an organ donor. In her honor if you are not a donor please consider it. I have been a donor since I can remember. I think if in your death you can help just one more person and you leave it behind anyway share the life. I am a litle down today understandingly. Please keep this family in your thoughts and prayers. Rest in Peace Angel. You will be missed and know the world is missing an angel.

My God Time Flies

Today is my 28th birthday! I am almost to 30! I cannot believe it at all! I have 2 years to make up my mind if I want more children I refuse to give birth after 30 even a day after. We will see what happens in this year!

I am kinda down today. One having a birthday on Monday sucks royally. Everyone is cranky because they have to work! Second of all the excitement is over the weekend so your day is shot. Also saint patricks day is no fun because everyone wants to go out and drink green beer! I don't know maybe getting older without my mom is what is breaking my heart. As I lay here trying to sleep I prayed to God let me see her face one more time even in my dreams. Let me here her voice one more time even in my imagination. No matter how hard I try she is fading away to a memory. I miss her so much. I miss her advice. I miss her rants. I miss her all together. Why can God be so cruel and take away someone so young? Someone who beat cancer and a nasty marriage? What did she do that she had to become an angel so early? Growing up she called me every year at 104 am till the year she died. I was annoyed most years and as I got older I appreciated it. Now here I am 28 years later that newborn longs for her mama once again.

I feel like balling my eyes out but I know that will not help. So this year here I am. Snow is on the ground. i have to take Roana to school in the cold and dh has to work tomorrow. Why do I feel this is going to be a crappy day? I must think positive though as only negative brings negative.

Do me a favor everyone. Please please please. If your parents are still alive this year call them or go to them and embrace them. You never know if this is your last day together. May you all feel joy and happiness today on my day.

Happy Birthday My Love, My Life!

I know he doesn't read my blogs but today is my husbands 32nd birthday. I cannot believe we have Celebrated 9 bithdays so far in our journey together. I tried to convince him to stay home today but he said we can celebrate this weekend. The funny thing is I do not think he looks 32 at all. He is getting more handsome with age. I am so proud to call him my husband. Yes we have bad and good days but honestly the good outweighs the bad. Like yesterday he told me I was the best thing to happen to him and he wanted us to be togther forever.

Thank you God for blessing this earth with an angel and i am so glad you blessed me with him. I love you Rogelio for today and forever!