Not a Snow day but took advantage of the Snow anyway

Today we awoke with a two hour delay for school and I was pretty disappointed but we would take it. Roana had 4 hours of school and then for 1 hour after helped some primary students learn Spanish. It was great. When she came out of class we had the sleds ready and walked to the back of the school where a big hill awaited us.

My children impressed me with how the rode the sleds. They are naturals. The found mounds of snow and jumped them as if they were just tiny little hills. The swerved around other sledders and sled farther and then came tracking up for more. It was freezing outside but watching the joy in their pink little cheeks more then made up for it. I hope we continue to get good snow so we can do this more often. These are the moments that I relish and vow to keep in my head forever.

Today was not my best day

I went to the dr today and got a few diagnoses. They can be fixed with meds but I am still pretty miserable. I am only 30 years old. I should not have to deal with cholesterol pills, daily asprin regimens, high blood pressure meds 2 different ones plus 50,000 mgs of vitamin d. I am not normal and I hate that. I am only 30. I should have to be worrying about what grades my kids are making. What to make for dinner and such. Ro does not really understand. He says you are not the only person in this world to take that many medications. I understand that but at 30 he only had his diabetes. At least I do have that going for me. My blood sugars are very well. I will do my daily pill regimen and live for my family even if right now I am mourning my lifestyle.

While I was at the Dr. Ro took the kids sledding. They had a blast and I plan on taking them again tomorrow. I am very blessed with a great husband. He provides for the kids and me and loves me unconditionally. I really hope these vitamin d lifts my moods so I can be the woman I used to be. I want to be strong and happy and loving instead of this beast. I guess we will see when I take them if it helps. Wish me lots of luck and send prayers this works. I am still going to lose weight too. I can beat this demon. I have overcame way worse things in my life and I will continue to battle. I have never gone down without a fight.

Learning to say No

As of Jan 2nd I have been doing a lifestyle change. Every day I follow a low fat, low carb, high protein and fruits and veggies diet. I am trying to set the example for my kids on how to eat healthy. It is very hard when the past 10 years has been spent just kind of throwing food at them and saying here try this and try that. I myself have given up 100 percent soda and I am trying to give up artificial sugars. I have noticed if I drink that instead of water I retain a lot of water. Now I am trying to teach my kids no. Mommy can I have cheese. No son not right now. Mommy can I have fried chicken. No baby we just ate. Mommy...if you do not need it right now or if it is not a fruit or vegatable....no.

I am also teaching myself to say no. Tonight has been a trying evening as we have been home all day due to weather. The kids have been fighting and broke one of my PS3 remotes. I went into the kitchen and opened the fridge. I do it out of comfort. I picked up the box of leftover fried chicken and opened it. I closed my eyes and smelled it. I looked up and told myself. No...there is fruits and vegtables. No reason for that. I instead pulled out a bowl and grabbed half an apple, tomatoes and some mushrooms. I am proud of that moment. Another one was we went to Walmart. When I was there we got the kids some chocolate donuts. Ro offered them to me 3 times. I told him baby I would love one but offer me one next Sunday. That will be my next free day. This is a new way of life and I am loving it.

Today was just an easy day at home. We are home because of an incoming winter storm. I kinda half hope school is cancelled tomorrow. I want to go sledding tomorrow. ;-) We will see our school district hardly ever cancels and that sucks. We played video games and watched movies. I played on facebook and of course exercised. It was a nice easy day. We need to do it more often.

Learning new things is part of being a parent. I am praying my daughter sees my struggle with weight and decides now she wants to be healthier. She told me today Mommy I am sorry you have to work so hard. The dr should just do something for you. I turned to her and said "Baby I would love that too. But if I do not do it myself then I will just get this way again." I think she understood. I love my children and I want them to be better.

Just another Manic Monday

This Monday was a great monday because Ro had today off with the kids and I. We went to the park and hung out and did a 3 mile walk together. It was pretty great. The kids played in the playground. I made baby feet in the snow and we saw a flock of geese. Days like this are the best ones ever.

A new blog for the new me

I am still keeping this blog to document the kids and such however I want to start a blog dedicated to my healthy someday living. I am going to daily update. Please feel free to follow it.

http://skinnyinsideofme.blogspot.com/

Happy Birthday My Lovely Baby Girl

10 years ago I was home from the hospital and was taking care of a less then week old baby. Now here I am 10 years later looking at a gorgeous little girl. She is blossoming every year into a more wonderful young lady. This year she is going to be on Student Council, Mentor the kindergartners, and continue to be on honor roll. She wanted an ice cream cake, pasta salad and steak. My baby knows what she wants. What she wants she gets. It was a wonderful birthday and I am so proud of my baby girl. I realized only 8 more years now until she is an adult. My baby is not an baby anymore...but I love every minute I get with her. And I pray someday she feels the same with a daughter of her own.

Happy New Year!

We were going to celebrate Roana's birthday today, however thanks to our lovely snow storm we really did not go out due to dangerous conditions. Ok I lie, I lie seriously I lie. We did venture out to Safeway and bought the stuff to make Chili Cheese dogs, french fries and some alcohol. New years eve is a favorite holiday of mine. It is reflecting on the year and realizing what changes we have to do. Then you do them. You set goals for yourself and hopefully achieve them.

Tonight was an easy night. I drank a four pack of Jamaican Me Happy wine coolers and watched Big Ro drink his Bud Light Golden Wheat. We are not big drinkers so come 10 pm I was posting like a crazy girl on facebook the most random status'.

So the kids fell asleep around 10 like always and Ro and I curled into the couch and watched the new year ring in. It was simple but nice. I am so blessed to see another year come and go.

My new year resolutions are a few.

1. Lose weight and become a healthier me by obtaining a new healthier lifestyle. This entitles eating healthy and having one comfort food day a week. I have to lose weight due to my high blood pressure and such.

2. Blog more....obviously I am trying

3. Become a gentler me. I can be mean to my husband at times. I know hard to believe but I am doing the love dare to make sure I can feel love all over again.

2010 was a great year and I know 2011 is going to be only better. I love my life and it is going good. Hopefully 2011 will be another year I can look back at and smile too.

Woo hoo Finally!

Today started out to be a not so lovely day. I woke up because I am currently 4 days late. Yep 4 days late. I woke up and could barely look out my eyes. Went to the counter and pulled out a test. I took the test and looked down. Negative. I should have known. IUD's are only 99.9999 percent effective or something like that. My heart sunk a little but honestly right now is not the right time. Our finances are messed up and we are still having some relationship struggles. We are still waiting to hear if Ro got his dream job and so on. It is not time for lil Rosalyn to make her appearance yet if she ever does. I am blessed though. I have 2 beautiful children and a pretty good man. My life is pretty close to perfect.

Today was also 1 week and 4 days into Winter vacation. We have not had a major winter storm as of yet. I miss my snow badly and we even purchased snow tires for this lovely weather. I have a bunch of local channels on my facebook and I am contantly bantering with the weathermen saying things such as "I am dreaming of brown christmas." Or "Snow...Snow? What is that? I miss it a lot. Hope you are right but probably not." Today they predicted 4-7 inches. I doubted it because it seems as if a big old bubble of heat has wrapped itself around our city. But surprisingly at 2:00 I took the trash out and what danced in front of my face? A few snow flurries. I came running in and told the kids. We threw open the blinds and watched it go from Flurries to Snow to White Out in hours. I am thankful though because this is going to help our drought situation.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve. Where in the world did 2010 go? It seems like I blinked and there it went. However good things and bad things have happened this year. Ro graduated, Roana did well in school and Lil Ro well he is just becoming a fine young man. I am very proud of my family. We are supposed to go to the store and pick up some dinner for the kids and I to celebrate Roanas big 1-0. However Ro is fearful the plows may not get out in time. I think I have one more pill left of my blood pressure. If not then I am concerned how this year is going to start out. I really need my meds but not if it is going to cause an accident. Time will tell what happens. I hope the roads clear some or we are going to be munching on 7-11 hot dogs and ding dongs for 2011. But honestly if for some reason that happens as long as I have Big Ro and the kids around it will be good. They are truly the reason for my season. Going to sign off for now. It is 11:13. I just want to become more active agian. I miss my writing and I pray I stay. Good night and remember If you can dream it, You can acheive it!

I have had this blog for 3 years now. I really need to get back on top of it.

This year has been manic. We have had a lot of ups and downs and I have had a lot of stress. This morning is my daughters tenth birthday and reality has smacked me in the face. I am 30 years old now. I have high blood pressure and am overweight. I need to get healthy for myself and my children. As much as this is going to hurt me not being able to eat nummy foods so much I really need to do this. Starting Jan 2nd I am going on a diet. I need to be strict but healthy. I need to exercise and I need to be strong. I have to become a better me. I want to live past 40 for my husband and kids. They deserve to have their mother with them. I can and will do this. I am going to start blogging again every evening for sure. My blood pressure was perfect when I put my feelings into cyberworld. I am going to do this now. I hope everyone has had a great year. I am going to be doing this more often again. Wish me luck on this journey cause here I go again with my running shoes on.

10 years Old today! Time really does fly when you are having fun!

Back in 2000 my sil announced her pregnancy to me on my husbands birthday. I was heartbroken as my dh and I had been married for almost a year and I wanted a child so badly. DH took me to a catholic church on NYE and told me to pray for whatever my heart desired and that God would grant it. I remember kneeling at the pew and tears streaming down my eyes and praying so hard for myself. I prayed so hard for a pregnancy. I forgot all about that day.

Fast forward to Mother's day 2000. We came down to Colorado Springs and went to Kmart and bought my SIL a travel system. I fell in love with it but I told Ro we had no reason for me to buy it for me. I was not with child. We took my sil to chipotle for Mothers day where they gave her a free burrito. They then asked me if I too was pregnant. I told them no...not to my knowledge. The sweet lady gave me a burrito anyway and stated "Maybe you are not pregnant right now but someday you will be a mom. Sooner or later." We finished our day with SIL and driving home from here to Denver I told dh. Hon I think I may be late. He looked at me and we stopped at Safeway. I ran in and grabbed an answer test. It quickly turned positive. My heart leapt with Joy and I called my sil. I was indeed pregnant.

On December 28th 2000 I went to the dr for my normal check up. My daughter was due on Jan 22. I never imagined what would happen next. The dr felt my uterus and told me my water felt low. She sent me to ultrasound and indeed I was very low on water. She instructed me to call my husband and go to the hospital immediately where they could hook me up on ivs for fluid. I called dh in tears and he ran home from work. He had already requested 3 weeks off the following month to stay home with us but his boss told him we could figure it out when it happened.

We got to the hospital at 2:30 they hooked me up to an iv and checked my water. My water was broken. The dr came in and told me as soon as shift changed we would do induction. 9:30 pm they started my pitocin. Those were the most painful pains I had ever had in my life. I cried for an epidural but after 6 failed attempts to put one in I decided I could go natural. At 2:35 I got the urge to push. The dr came in and I was very scared. At 2:42 am those beautiful words came out. She is perfect. Its a girl. As I gazed into those dark brown eyes and stroked her silky black hair I knew I was blessed I knew that I was going to be mom to something special.

Now 10 years down the road my tiny 7 lb 4 oz miracle is a beautiful big girl. She is going to assist teaching Spanish to primary grades, She is going to be in student council and she is on honor roll. If I had to make a list back then of the perfect child I could not have requested on more beautiful. Happy birthday my Roana Marie. You are perfect and mommy loves you. Remember if you can dream it daughter, you can achieve it. I am very proud of you!
December 29, 2000

December 2000

December 2010