We found something to do

With the cold weather and snow in the forecast Big Ro and I were afraid to attempt the Denver Drive. We discussed our options and found the best one for us. A place called Lil Biggs. It was fun at first because the place was practically empty but when the stuck up people showed up it was not worth it. One lady told Big Ro when he was playing with Lil Ro "Are you that childs father? You look nothing like him!" She is lucky I was not around and then the mommies of the perfect blancos kept taking their children away from Roana like she has a contagious disease. I got my money's worth for 19.95. I loved the concept but because of the clientele I will not return. We were all there for the same reason. Our babies and a good time. I am sick of the prejudice in this day and age. Biracial is growing so people need to be more accepting. I am still saddened that in this day and age we still look throw colored glasses. We are a rainbow and people need to accept that. Life is short love it people or just stay home.

What a day.

I love tacos de cabeza. So much that I ordered three of them. Tomorrow we are supposed to go to Casa Bonita but daddy has to work. I hope he gets off early so we can go have a good time. We also want to go to lil Bigs but with Lil Ro's broken arm I do not see that happening. Time will tell I guess.

Some days I still feel as though I am in a dream. I see my two gorgeous kids, handsome husband and reliable car and I think this cannot be true. But it is. I am so lucky. I guess we will just see what tomorrow holds and I will take pictures no matter what.

Happy Birthday Mom!

Today you would have been 52. You were a blessing in my life no matter what other's may think. I am sorry your life was so rough but I know you wanted us girls. I am a better mom today because of all you taught me. Somedays I wish things could have been different. I often question why you were taken from us too soon. As I have often said Karma is a witch and you know they will get theirs. I am in disbelief that your husband remarried so soon but we should have known when he jumped right in on you too.

I know a lot of the frusturations you expelled on us were from the frusturation in your marriage to my father. I am glad because of all the pain you caused me I now spare my children that same pain. I know the sorry's will not replace the bruises so I hold my wrath and use my words and then spank once on the bottom.

Your grandchildren ask for you daily. I feel sad that I can just give them storie's. I know you are watching them as sometimes I feel your presence here in the home and I swear I hear your sobbing. I miss you mom. In the end you were the mother I always wanted. I think it was because you finally found your happiness with your husband. He was the man my father could never be. Thank you for loving Big Ro. He would make you proud. We smile when we talk about you and wish you would have accepted the offer of moving here and taking care of Roana. But I know you were grown and love fed you.

Life is so short mom. I wish we could have realized. Now I only have my pictures and memories. I know the pain you went through and I forgive you. I pray while you dance in the heavens with angels. You take a break and look down at my little family and know on this day we wish we could celebrate with you too. I love you mom. Thanks for giving me life and thanks for all your lessons. I see the butterflies and smile I will think of you always. Fly sweet angel and know you are missed.

Friends hold on to your loved ones. You never know when your good-bye will be the last. The little arguments do not matter. Its the big picture. Your parents do love you. They gave you life. Please hug your parents tight. You cannot understand how much I would love to hold mine one last time.

Grr he is My son

Don't you love it when you get other peoples advice? If I hear unwanted advice from a know it all parent I am going to scream. This is my son. We want him to have long hair. We do not care what you think! He is our son and we have that right to chose his hair style. If you want to feed him and cloth him well feel free to join in raising him. Until then just shut your trap and I will hold back my fist promise.

He is making me so proud. His language is improving and I know that he is very smart. I ask him for shoes and he brings them. I ask for milk or leche and he says si. He also says thank you in Chinese. He is a good kid. Please look at his gorgeous curls and tell me I do not need to cut them yet.

Roana is also making great strides in school. She is getting passing grades and making new friends. Her teacher adores her and I am very happy. Its going good right now. This weekend we are driving up to Denver. We will go to Casa Bonita weather permitting. I know we will all have a good time. I hope all is well with the world again for everyone and not just me anymore.

Just A Reflection of All My Blessings

I have been focusing on the negative in my life. I have to turn over a new leaf. I have so many blessings to be thankful for.

My first blessing of course was my conception and birth. My mother even went on a roller coaster in Kings Island when she was pregnant with me. I was very blessed to be born into a family who was close until I moved away.

Another blessing of mine is Westland High School. What a lot of people did not know is in the ninth grade my parents filed bankruptcy and we had to move out of district. Before I went there I was tortured in High School and made fun of. So bad to the point I had seriously considered dropping out. Then that blessing came. My life was good again. I was so happy and I finally found a place to be me.

After high school my best blessing came. My husband. I was very depressed and ready to give it all up. My parents were fighting daily and I was getting beat. On the day I met my husband an angel was looking upon me. I had even considered suicide before I met him. I had taken lots of pain meds a couple of days before. I lived but I prayed to God to send me a sign and then my sign was Roger23. I was so lucky to go see him in person. Thank Goodness for babysitting and summer camp jobs. I hopped on that flight and met him. He saved me and to this day does not even know it.

After my Husband became my Husband I found out my sister in law was pregnant. It was not fair. She was unmarried and years before I had many devasting pregnancy scares. I call them devestating cause I thought I was and when I found out I wasnt I cried. That New Years I went into church and asked Big Ro how to pray in a catholic church. He told me the same way as I knew. As we knelt in the pew together I prayed very hard. I prayed for a child. 3 months later I conceieved my 7 year old daughter. I am so blessed as I could have struggled like so many couples. She blessed me with the gift of being a mother and hopefully one day will give me the privelege of being grandma.

When Roana hit 2 we decided we wanted to complete our family. I really wanted a son but for some reason it just did not happen. I gave up once she hit 4. A couple of months later walking through JC Penny with my sister in law I realized I was late. We ran to Wal Mart picked up a pregnancy test and there showed two lines. My blessing my son was brought into this world. He was concieved in Vegas but we were not trying at all.

This year we had the car accident at first I thought it was a curse but now I realize God had to hit us hard to get us to realize a lot of things. He helped us get into this new car and now my family is safer. I know life throws us curveballs but right now I need to focus on my blessings and I do have a lot of blessings in my life. I thank God for all my trials and tribualations. Without him I would have no blessings and I would not be who I am today. He is Good and will not give me more then I can handle.

Our newest Family member

We got him after Big Ro got off of work. We are very excited to have him join our family of course. He was born in 2004 and has big beautiful clear eyes. No, I am not talking about a dog! I am talking about our new car. We picked it up today and we are in love. He is bright yellow and has the newest safety features. He is a 2004 Dodge Neon SXT. I am so glad we did not get the LandRover now. He is automatic and front wheel drive so he works fine for us. Finally I can say the stress of having to find a car is over.

Now for his name. We are not 100 percent sure. We have our car Fallen Dove (white 1987 Suburau wagon) so he needs a good one. I instantly thought George (like the man with the yellow hat) or Tweety or Bumble Bee. Any other suggestions. Without further ado meet our new baby. These are not his pictures but I want to make sure he has a nice background before I take my own but I assure he looks identical but with tinted windows.

Busy day indeed

Yesterday was our "Fun" day so today was business. We had to go do laundry and straighten up the apartment. That was from 9-11. Then we headed out to Costco to get a little shopping done. We spent an hour there too. From there we had to go to the Rancho and buy some fruit and bollillo. Afterwards we ran to the dollar tree and returned a video. It was a very productive day.

We then came home curled up on the sofa and basked in the glow of the television and chilled out. I am exhausted but I know things are now done. Tomorrow I need to call the surgeon and schedule Lil Ros follow up and also sit by the phone and wait for the call. Hopefully all goes well.

We may have a new car

Today we went to the dealer where we narrowed it down to 2 cars. A 1995 Landrover and a 2004 Dodge Neon STX. We made our decision and an offer. We will get it Monday after the bank approves it. This will be perfect for us and we will be a lot safer either way. I will post pics on Monday when we get it officially delivered.

The kids are doing great. Today we stayed at home and ate ravioli and played The Simpson's. I know I gripe about life alot but it is going as well as possible. It is good. I am going to start looking for evening work so we can move into a three bedroom home in the beginning of the year. Our little family has outgrown this apartment. Big Ro is going to hit his real estate hard again this year. So far we have 2 prospective clients. I think this can only go up from here.

I miss Ohio sometimes honestly but I do not think I can move back. Big Ro's family is in CA and Mexico. I have family in Ohio & Washington. We are directly in the middle and I cannot think of leaving. The majestic mountains. The fresh air. The history and the people. Colorado is home and until God tells me otherwise I will be here. We have much to be thankful for and I am going to look up instead of down. I will not let anything hold me back anymore.

A newer car in our Future?

I am very excited and nervous. We have narrowed our choices to 2 cars. We test drove 2 and I am having trouble deciding on which. We will make our decision tomorrow. Wish us luck.

Wow this is hard

I am trying to keep up with this blog and deal with a very rambutious 2 year old and a heavy cast. Throw searching for a car and internet problems and I have a very sad blog. Life is going crazy right now. Roana's bully from last year is in her reading class but I am dealing with it. I have talked to the teacher and this is being addressed. We are still searching for our perfect car. We now realize for what we want we need to make payments. We found this great little dealership and am looking at a LandRover. Life is good but is trying right now. I hope it continues this way and I will focus on the positive.