Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Just A Reflection of All My Blessings

I have been focusing on the negative in my life. I have to turn over a new leaf. I have so many blessings to be thankful for.

My first blessing of course was my conception and birth. My mother even went on a roller coaster in Kings Island when she was pregnant with me. I was very blessed to be born into a family who was close until I moved away.

Another blessing of mine is Westland High School. What a lot of people did not know is in the ninth grade my parents filed bankruptcy and we had to move out of district. Before I went there I was tortured in High School and made fun of. So bad to the point I had seriously considered dropping out. Then that blessing came. My life was good again. I was so happy and I finally found a place to be me.

After high school my best blessing came. My husband. I was very depressed and ready to give it all up. My parents were fighting daily and I was getting beat. On the day I met my husband an angel was looking upon me. I had even considered suicide before I met him. I had taken lots of pain meds a couple of days before. I lived but I prayed to God to send me a sign and then my sign was Roger23. I was so lucky to go see him in person. Thank Goodness for babysitting and summer camp jobs. I hopped on that flight and met him. He saved me and to this day does not even know it.

After my Husband became my Husband I found out my sister in law was pregnant. It was not fair. She was unmarried and years before I had many devasting pregnancy scares. I call them devestating cause I thought I was and when I found out I wasnt I cried. That New Years I went into church and asked Big Ro how to pray in a catholic church. He told me the same way as I knew. As we knelt in the pew together I prayed very hard. I prayed for a child. 3 months later I conceieved my 7 year old daughter. I am so blessed as I could have struggled like so many couples. She blessed me with the gift of being a mother and hopefully one day will give me the privelege of being grandma.

When Roana hit 2 we decided we wanted to complete our family. I really wanted a son but for some reason it just did not happen. I gave up once she hit 4. A couple of months later walking through JC Penny with my sister in law I realized I was late. We ran to Wal Mart picked up a pregnancy test and there showed two lines. My blessing my son was brought into this world. He was concieved in Vegas but we were not trying at all.

This year we had the car accident at first I thought it was a curse but now I realize God had to hit us hard to get us to realize a lot of things. He helped us get into this new car and now my family is safer. I know life throws us curveballs but right now I need to focus on my blessings and I do have a lot of blessings in my life. I thank God for all my trials and tribualations. Without him I would have no blessings and I would not be who I am today. He is Good and will not give me more then I can handle.

2 Comments / Comentarios:

Carrie said...

I sing this alot..."Priase God from whom al blessings flow..." you know that song, it's the grace blessing we always sang at church growing up. I love that song it makes me realize that althought I am going crazy someone else is worse off then me or hurting or needing more then I am. Sing it to yourself and it willhelp you feel better. I promise!! Take care of the kids and talk to you later.
Carrie

My3Ro's said...

Thank you Carrie. I want you to know you are one of the unspoken blessings I focus on daily. Love ya girl