Friday, May 30, 2008

I am losing it.

I am now in a dip on this rollercoaster. I am growing tired of being neglected. It seems as soon as I sit down someone somewhere needs something from me that they could do themselves. Mommy look, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh, hon can you???? These phrases are driving me mad. I was thinking back to the days where Ro and I would try to make time for each other and I cried. We have not been out just the two of us in almost a year. He won't even talk to his sister so I cannot ask her to take the kids for a day. Is this the way it was supposed to be? I know be grateful. I have a decent man. But sometimes I feel like I am part of the furniture. Like for example. I was in the mood for adult relations. I took advantage of the moment and I did all the work. Sadly no words were spoken either. I guess I should be grateful but what happened to the act of love? I am so frusturated. Maybe if I had just 15 minutes to myself I could blow off some steam. He works in the morning too until who knows what time. Stay at home mom....not as easy as it sounds.

2 Comments / Comentarios:

Anonymous said...

I know exactly how you feel. I have thses days myself, feels like it will never end, you'll never get help and you feel like you are begging for things you used to get so easily. I feel your pain. Go take a nice hot bath and turn on a radio that always helps me feel better. Oh, make sure you lock the door!!!!! Take care.
Carrie

My3Ro's said...

Carrie: Yes I am finally starting to realize I need to plan days out. If not the children go nuts and so do i. Patience is something I am still learning even after 7 years motherhood.