I am fuming right now

The dog jerked out of the leash and cut my leg. The baby was screaming and people stared at me like I am psycho and I am on the verge of tears.

We are going to vegas. I was so happy as I thought I would get to meet a good friend of mine. Well hubby said No. He said we are going to be too busy with family to meet them. I hope she forgives me and that next time I go we are still welcome. I am sorry Angy.

Then I am exhausted. Last night I stayed up looking for the gps. Well I found it thank goodness. Under the counter where it should not have been. I was crying and freaking out. Thank goodness my mother in law knows how it feels to be a woman. LOL I lose almost everything. I am terrible with things. Hopefully I can improve.

My sister in law is doing good right now and the whole situation puts Big Ro in a bad mood. I hope it is just his time of the month or I am screwed. Also we got news today that ones of his coworkers husband passed away. My heart is breaking for her and I wanted to send her an email but Ro said it would be better if I did not. What is this world coming too? Oh well just a low day on this roller coaster. Hope everyone else is having a semigood day.

The End...well to some things at least

So Rogelio busted his knee again playing last week so no more kickball for rest of the season. Hopefully next year. I am sad as I enjoyed having this day to get out and cheer my man on but cest le vi. He is sad too but its not fair to him or the team to sit out and take up valuable bench space.

My mother in law is with us for the next two weeks. It is really nice to hang with her and have her help. I miss the days when we lived together every day. I am weird I guess. I get along with my mother in law. I always dreaded having one and now I dread the day I am without her.

My sister in law is gone. She moved to Mexico this weekend. We said our goodbyes this Saturday and my heart hurts. I am strong for her because she is so positive but I am going to miss my beautiful nephews so much. I regret fighting with her over the stupid stuff. I hope she finds what she is looking for. I wont talk much about that cause my heart hurts.

Rogelio and I had a semi date tonight. We went and grabbed taco's. It was very nice to chat instead of screaming No Ro every couple of seconds or dropping our food to chase him out the door. We are going to try to have a regular date this next couple of weeks but time will tell if that happens. We need adult time to bond. We are very lucky to have each other. Life is OK here in our little home. Just a little down right now. But I know as long as we stick together. I gotta go Roana just socked Lil Ro and I see blood. The joys of parenting.

Our first dinner without terror

My mother in law told us go enjoy dinner and pick up some things for her from walmart. I had to take Roana but we sat and could actually savor the flavors of the food for a change. He behaved pretty well according to mom but the mother in me made me feel guilty and miss him like crazy. I hope Rogelio and I take advantage of her offer once again when she offers. Hopefully this time no Roana. Only time will tell.

On a side note we are going to Vegas. I booked my Hotel Room last night and we will be heading there on the 18th and will leave on the 20th. Yes it is going to be a quick visit but I am so excited. Last time we went we came back with our extra souviner. Lil RO. A divine miracle would have to occur if we bring back another. While we are there we are going to enjoy In & out and hopefully meet one of my online friends. Time will tell.

My sister in law is gone. She moved this weekend. Far fat from here. Hopefully when she arrives safely I can update. My heart is breaking but I am happy for her.

So that is it. Hope all is well. I am off to spend time with family.

The Best Fourth of July Ever

We went to Denver like I mentioned and did not expect it to be very good. Sometimes we argue or sometimes they argue but to my surprise we all got along. My sister in law and I stopped at Sam's Club, we bought bratwurst, chips and some sodas. Then next door was the liquor store. What is the fourth of July without a little alcohol? I bought some bud light with lime and we headed home. I stuck the brats to boil and they were delicous. My sister in law and I had a great time. We laughed and teased our husbands. Then we got a big box of poppers and threw them by the handfuls on the ground. We wanted fireworks. The boys said no. We called them boring and went to the stand anyway.

We ended up getting 60 worth of fireworks for 20. First round was a blast. Ro-N screamed and Roana hyperventilated. We needed more. So off for round two. This time the lady was great. She gave us 80 worth for 20. The next day we had to come back. I hope all our fourths are half this good.

We had a blast but it is not a fourth I will forget for awhile.

Today I recieved a sign

My family is going through so much right now. I was feeling really down today and questioning my parenting skills. My daughter is sick and I was stubborn so now we are paying for it. I question a lot why God is putting me through all he has in my life. Why did he take my mom? Why did he make my father resent me? Why did he make my family hate my husband. I was thinking a lot when we pulled into a parking lot. The lightning flashed and the thunder rumbled. Quite fitting for my mood. I then looked to the right of me and saw this:

I then thought of this verse I learned in church: Genesis 9:13-15

13: I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth.

14 And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud:

15 and I will remember my covenant, which is between me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh.


I think it was God's way of reminding me he will not give me more then I can handle. He will not let me suffer or fail. I will get through this if I keep all faith in him. Yes right now it is rough but through him I will become a stronger wife and mother. I really need to find a church and I think my daughter getting sick was the wake up call I needed.

We may go to denver tomorrow and spend some time with my sister in law. One day soon hopefully I can tell you all that is going on but for now keep us in your prayers.

By the way. I made up with my sister. She called me in the hospital sobbing. I told her I will talk to her however the moment her husband does or says anything inappopriate I will cut them off again. Noone and I mean noone hurts me or my family again. Have a great night all.

An update to Roana

So we went to the doctor today and talked to the doctor. Her oxygen levels are still kind of low so we are keeping her on the nebulizer and oxygen for another week. She loves it though and dread when they finally take them off. Also she was missing two shots so the doctor poked her. I think she cried more when that happened then the whole time in the hospital. Keep us in your prayers.

My Couple of Days as A single mom

So now that I told you guys about the hospital drama I finally can settle down and tell you about how it felt to be single. The hospital allows unlimited visiting hours with the sibling and parents of the admitted child but lil Ro-N was trying to rip out the oxygen and take the breathing treatments. Ro being the responsible man he is took the baby home and left me alone at the hospital. I was laying on the pulll out and tossing and turning. Roana asked me mom where is dad? I told her hon he is with your brother. She cried and cried and asked for him. I let her talk to him on the phone but with her shortness of breath it was barely understandable. That night I missed I my husband. I missed feeling him in my arms and even his funny faces. He also got a dose of reality. He told me he was cleaning the apartment and Rogelito would not permit it more then a couple of minutes. We both had a little reality check. We love each other. Maybe not 100% of the time but we are compatible and very much in love. We complete each other and will grow old and grey together. So I guess its not so much single life but more a reality check. It's not that bad as long as you have true love and sometimes you have to hit those curveballs life throws you.

Her Life Flashed before my Eyes!

Saturday was supposed to be a great day. Daddy was supposed to work but then we were supposed to go up to Denver. God had other plans. On Friday Roana was wheezing a little but she tends to overreact. We came home from eating out which she barely did and I gave her a warm bath and sent her to bed. 3:00 am I woke up. I walked in to get water for my dry throat and opened the door to check her. She was a little blue and her chest was very rapidly raising and falling. My heart stopped. I called Big Ro three times. He came to the door and looked at her. What do you want to do he asked. I picked up the phone to call 911. He told me to get dressed and we could get to the hospital in 10 minutes most. We struggled to wake her up and I dragged her into the er. I was terrified as she could barely talk. She struggled for each breath. I waited in the er for 30 minutes but as soon as she was in triage they rushed us over to respiratory. Her oxygen level was at 80 and her heart rate was soaring. If they did not get her on oxygen vital organs could have shut down.

3 hours later after the oxygen was administered she was on 5 liters. They transferred us to children's hospital. We were admitted and she was doing better. She loved the nurses and room service. I thank god for those nurses and our pediatrician that Roana has seen since she was 6 months old. At 11 am today we were released. She cried because she wanted to order steak but mommy made her feel better by making her steak and rice for lunch. Right now she is on 1/2 liter of oxygen for 24 hours a day until Weds at least. Also we are doing a nebulizer every 4-6 hours. She is also on antibiotics for the next 3 days. I am sure she will recover but I do not want to deal with acute bronchitis any time soon. I complain about my baby but after almost losing her and watching her be semi conscious I am grateful to watch her grow. I will post another blog tomorrow about my experience as a single mom.

Last Sunday

We spent the day with my mother in law and sister in law. We had a blast. I am sad that we lost all that time together being stupid and arguing. We grilled burgers and unfortunately I was not feeling 100%. My stomach hurt and head ached so I slept for 2 hours. We will be returning there this sunday as my mil is her birthday. We are so blessed for family.

We have a home phone again. We are trying this company called MagicJack. It is a very nice company and so far we are very pleased. I can talk to my friends as much as possible now without worrying about minutes. So email me and I will send you my number. Woo hoo. Enjoy the pics.

It Breaks My heart

Today was game day and papa had to sit out. Instead we sat in the bleachers and screamed for his team to win. I laughed as we all chanted "dont touch home". LoL. My heart broke as Ro clung to the fence trying to join his team. He even imagined kicking the ball. He won't admit it but he loves the physical activity. I love the people he works with it seems like family. I think next week he will play. God willing no thunderstorms he will play. This week he bonded with the kids. Back to regular scheduled programming.