Random thoughts running through my mind

So yesterday we attempted a normal day. We went to get groceries and stopped at this rad store called Entertainmart! My lil Ro has an obsession with guitars and would not stop screaming so I handed it to him and these are what we got!





I am starting to feel somewhat better. I just have a cough that is sitting in my chest now. I know I will recooperate. Roana is turning into one spicy child. She is back talking and letting me know I am not her teacher. I am trying to stay patient with her but so far the only thing that works is sending her to her room for the rest of the evening. Is it even posible for the hormones to start this early?

This world is going mad. A man here who killed a police officer point blank plead not guilty claiming he did not know he was police. A mom burned 5 of her children while they were sleeping because of financial decisions. It is a sad sad world right now. I am going to hug my baby tighter and be more patient but hopefully soon the world will right itself. Enjoy the pics. My friend that had surgery is fine thanks for the prayers

When it Rains it Pours

I swore to everyone I would not post a blog until it was positive. I really want to be upbeat in this blog but I now know this is impossible this week. I am sick as a dog and I cannot shake it. I am coughing, feel nauseous and worse of all have a headache. To make matters worse I got bad news yesterday. A friend on my son's baby board passed away. I am saddened by this because her children will not know their mother the way we did.

Then of Course Mr. Ro turned into an ass. Our friend is having surgery today and I am worried for her too. Last night I had to spank my Ro-N he was jumping on our bed and making a ruckus. He said "I do not believe in hitting babies." Yeah right unless they are standing in front of the television in the middle of your xbox game right? Now he is saying I'm ungrateful when he works hard for us. God I am just tempted to leave. Take my shit and go and never look back.

When anyone else is sick they get babied me I have to suck it up and be a woman. We have not even done the deed in over 3 weeks now and I have to beg for it like a pathetic teenager. Even then its excuse after excuse. Am I that repulsive? RIght now I am losing my mind. My head hurts and Im sick of cosleeping. I need my space and for some reason these kids think the bed is all thiers. I give up. I think they would all be better off without me. I need some time to think. It figures the day I need someone to cry with noone is around. Lets all pray this day gets better. Thanks for looking.

I QUIT!!!!!!!!

I am so tired of the screaming baby, the rude teachers and the nagging husband. I quit life. I told dh I am not feeling good so he gives me break...you know how by buying pizza and making me serve it! Thanks hunny that helps me bunches! My daughter Roana was sent home from school for having a fever. Guess what it broke and her new form of entertainment is torturing her lil brother.

Don't get me started on the cable today. For some reason the dang internet went out and I fixed it after 25 minutes. Then I had to pull out the tv to fix the dang box. I got both working but I got in trouble for tangling the cords to his 360 up. I am pulling my hair out here!

Where is my Pina Colada and sleep mask???? Hell I need a shot of whiskey. When is my break when do I get to be sick and be babied. Yea thats right they call me mommy and wife. When I took that ring and popped these creatures out I gave up my name and became servant. If anyone needs me I will be in the bathroom...crying my eyes out in a hot bath with that bottle of ibuprofen wishing there was a director screaming "Take 2!" Hope everyone else had a great day.

Not feeling so hot

My noisy neighbors last night kept me up until one in the morning. My dd was sick from school but no buts about it she is going tomorrow! My hubby is finally getting over his cold but now I feel weak and naseous. I guess that is the way it is mommy gets it last.

Life is going great so far. Lil Ro is getting so big so fast. He said his sisters name clear as a bell yesterday! I am so proud of them. Life is short live it hard.

Mi Princesa

My Big Dreamer

Cough Cough Cough

That is what is going on with my family right now. Even the baby. Ibuprofen is their best friend. What stinks is I know next week the same virus will knock me on my butt.
Roana missed school today so I was home with all 3 of them. I am ready for mommy and ro-n time.

I am very concerned about a irl friend of mine. Her name is Janet and next Thursday she is having surgery for her digestive tract. Please keep her in your prayers as she is one of the few people I have left in this world.

I am loving AI right now. It makes me crack up. I am so happy right now. My kids are semi good and dh is going to try to work tomorrow. We will see how that goes.

Strange thing happened today though. My sister who wants nothing to do with me has called twice. I have not answered as I know even if we talk that it will start all over again. I want to scream just let me be...we are happy. Oh well. Not that much today but wanted to check in. See yall on the flip side.

This Is My Time

Right now as the clock hits 9:00 I can finally sit down and relax before a long evening. My son is curled up on his side cup sitting at his side and Ro is laying in bed snoring quietly. I can zone out and enjoy a few moments of quiet. This is my time. My time to reflect on the days (or lack of) events. I can share what is going on with the world.

I cannot comprehend how these pharmaceutical businesses stay in business. My poor hubby is taking Tylenol cold & flu, TheraFlu, Ibuprofen and even rubbing Vick's all over his body (don't mine that part wink wink) but none of it is really helping. All it does is knock him out. I guess that is helping though as to my knowledge he is attempting a day at work tomorrow.

I am still amazed at my daughter. Today I told myself focus on her after school so I put my terrible toddler in the room with daddy and shut the door and sat with her at the dining room table. She cried because she had two spelling assignments and math and reading homework. I looked at her and told her straight-faced that "You are smart baby and they need to challenge you". She read a book to me for 20 minutes and some of the words she could sound out amazed me such as "Lake Titicaca" and Inca Kingdom. She is blossoming and I pray she knows how much she amazes me.

This morning my terrorist stole my heart too. When hubby got up to attempt a normal day he heard his dad leave. He slipped off his bed came running into my room and curled up beside me. He even grabbed my arm and placed it around him. I love my munchkin. He can brighten my day by the slightest thing. The poor soul though right now is breaking in his final molars so he is cranky and I think he is catching a bit of daddy's cold.

I have been bawling all day today. First I was watching lifetime while DH napped and I was watching a show about a lady who had a preemie who developed cancer planned her husband and nurse to get together after her death. I cried at first for the tiny birth, then the diagnosis of cancer, then the letters she wrote. My I just cried and cried. Hubby even saw me. Then this evening we rented the movie with the rock in it. The game plan. Oh my goodness. I loved this movie. It made me bawl too. I think AF is just around the corner.

Life is going forward. We are learning and loving. We are relying on each other more and more and making decisions together. I can honestly say for the first time in this marriage Rogelio and I have no outside influences influencing us. Our children are flourishing and you know life is not half bad.

When you look at the negative in this world and then the positive in my life you know its not worth it. All we can do is live life it was meant to be...With someone you love and happily.

Sick Hubby and less internet

You know how men can be. My poor husband is sick with the flu this weekend and I will not be online much. When my baby gets sick he gets really sick. So for the weekend besides shopping a little we spent most of our time in bed under the covers sleeping or zoning out in front of the tv. Hey I will sacrifice whatever I can to make him better. So if you all dont hear from me for a couple of days its not because I left its because my baby is sick. Have a great day!

Time to Move On

So I am coming to peace with a few things right now and I am going to only look forward. 2008 is supposed to be the year of new starts for me. Here is my thing. Yesterday Rogelio and I had a long talk. We both long for bigger and better things. I really really want to become a social worker but here in the Springs there is not much to be done and I am stuck in a rut. My hubby wants to become an engineer and a guy at his work has taken him under his wing. So I think it is coming down to what it has been coming down to for the last 9 years. We are seriously thinking of leaving Colorado. I long for sandy beaches and for fresh fruit year round. I long for the mountains and a yard for my children to play in. I long for family who stands by me thick and thin. I long for my home, my place I can finally become all I can be. Yea I know it sounds dumb. I am going to be 28 and I am thinking of just leaving all this behind. But with most of the stuff we are going through really there is not much to leave behind. I long to go to California. I long to be with my in laws. I long for undeniable support...maybe then I wouldnt hold onto a dream of perfection in this world.

My children are making me so proud. Roana is trying her best to tolerate her brother but honestly at 2 he is a royal terror. We went to a segunda and I scored her & him some very nice clothing. I also picked up my son a barbie guitar but he loves it. I then went to kmart and scored BIG. I got 7 plug ins, 1 hairbrush set and a flat iron for the whopping amount of 6.45! I love bargain hunting and I love the fact my dd helps find bargains with me. LoL

She is doing so good in school. I told her today baby you are smart dont listen to idiots. Yes people in the past have put her down because she has been silent but this year she blossomed from a bud to a beautiful flower. She makes me so proud and I have to remind myself that I need to tell her.

Rogelito is growing so fast. I am a terrible mommy with him. He still had bottles. But tonight I said enough is enough. I bought 6 sippys and dh and I agree that he can have 1 at night till 2. He did really good. He cracks me up. He says "Tanks." and he is a big boy that doesnt want to be carried around. Today he even picked out his own outfit. Where did my precious baby go? Why do they have to grow so fast?

That leads me to baby fever. I think I want another baby. I am terrified about it but I think one more baby would be it. I envision myself with a child end of this year or next depending what happens with this move. I am ready to complete my family and that unborn child holds my heart strings. Sounds crazy I know but I know up above that baby child is waiting to be sent and says God she will be my mom. She is not perfect but you know she is mine. I will have to seriously talk to Ro cause as I have said before my iud would be an issue for now. (But I have a friend who got pregnant on one) LoL

Well that is what is going on with me right now. My hopes and dreams. I hope you all enjoy. Ro and I are good thanks for looking. Good night and God Bless!