Tuesday, November 13, 2007

I have loss Nothing...I have only Gained My Self-Respect

I swear a big burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel like a free spirit now. I am no longer afraid to be affectionate with my hubby and I now realize everyone has their quirks noone is perfect. Big Ro is there for me. He comforts me and makes me feel so really beautiful. When I think of all God has done for me the best thing he gave me was Webtv. Without it he would have ended up with that terror of a girlfriend as a wife and I probably would have been a lot worse off. These last couple of days that I have separated from my father's side of the family has been really peaceful. I got a few harassing emails but I just shrugged them away. My children can sense the calmness radiating off my eyes and now are clinging to me. Is it possible that a negative family acceptance effects the family? I can conclusively say yes. Now that honestly I just don't give a hoot about them, I realize my whole household is a lot more content. We are enjoying life without them.

Can I tell you? My poor children never really had a relationship with any of those haters! My sister had saw my oldest daughter (age 6.9) a total of 3 times since she was born and my son (18 months) one time. But she has seen my cousins countless times. My poor children cannot even point to a picture and recognize her. Sooooo in my heart I feel they have not loss anything. I wish I could make them realize this. I wish I could make them disappear so I am choosing to ignore them. No my phone is not dead. I am sending you to voicemail. Just because I don't Instant Message you back does not make me the spawn of Satan. Pero Bueno, I have my friends. They are more support then you have ever given me. So give us a break and leave us alone. I wish they would GROW UP and move on to better more important things. Like we Have.

Thank you for following this journey with me. I am looking forward to growing only more positive. I am learning now that my Big Ro is the one I need to confide my fears and goals with. He in return is confiding and me. Strangely enough the family I thought I couldn't live without is the family I am living without. So to them that hold on to the memories...Take Your Memories, I don't need them.

Have a great day and I look forward to updating more positive once again soon.

1 Comments / Comentarios:

erlafontaine said...

Sorry you had to find out this way that blood is not always thicker than water....but you know what water cleanses everything!!! Let your new friend be your water and cleanse you of the negativity that are those people!