I have loss Nothing...I have only Gained My Self-Respect

I swear a big burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel like a free spirit now. I am no longer afraid to be affectionate with my hubby and I now realize everyone has their quirks noone is perfect. Big Ro is there for me. He comforts me and makes me feel so really beautiful. When I think of all God has done for me the best thing he gave me was Webtv. Without it he would have ended up with that terror of a girlfriend as a wife and I probably would have been a lot worse off. These last couple of days that I have separated from my father's side of the family has been really peaceful. I got a few harassing emails but I just shrugged them away. My children can sense the calmness radiating off my eyes and now are clinging to me. Is it possible that a negative family acceptance effects the family? I can conclusively say yes. Now that honestly I just don't give a hoot about them, I realize my whole household is a lot more content. We are enjoying life without them.

Can I tell you? My poor children never really had a relationship with any of those haters! My sister had saw my oldest daughter (age 6.9) a total of 3 times since she was born and my son (18 months) one time. But she has seen my cousins countless times. My poor children cannot even point to a picture and recognize her. Sooooo in my heart I feel they have not loss anything. I wish I could make them realize this. I wish I could make them disappear so I am choosing to ignore them. No my phone is not dead. I am sending you to voicemail. Just because I don't Instant Message you back does not make me the spawn of Satan. Pero Bueno, I have my friends. They are more support then you have ever given me. So give us a break and leave us alone. I wish they would GROW UP and move on to better more important things. Like we Have.

Thank you for following this journey with me. I am looking forward to growing only more positive. I am learning now that my Big Ro is the one I need to confide my fears and goals with. He in return is confiding and me. Strangely enough the family I thought I couldn't live without is the family I am living without. So to them that hold on to the memories...Take Your Memories, I don't need them.

Have a great day and I look forward to updating more positive once again soon.