Thursday, February 5, 2009

I am trying to be strong

It is Thursday, I am exhausted. I am sick as a dog and Burbujas passed on tonight. I am going to give in and buy a betta tomorrow. I can make one of those live forever. Rio has been alive for 3 years now.

I am very discouraged right now. A group I frequent is saying I am insane. I know its not the internet but I have been nothing but loving and accepting to these people. I truly thought I was one of them. I think I am going to lurk again for a long while. I will rely on the people I truly know to vent.

On a positive note I just want to thank them. Due to some bashing I have realized a few things. I actually sat with my husband and told him I trusted him. I encouraged him to go out with coworkers. I told him I completely understand and do not want to hold him back. He is going to do lunch with a couple of them and honestly I do not want details. I need no details. I trust him.

So here I am sick and tired and a little down in the dumps. I feel like I have lost a best friend. Maybe in a couple of weeks I will try again.....or then again maybe not.

8 Comments / Comentarios:

buffalogal said...

I am so sorry you are sick. That's never fun when you are trying to take care of your kids and run the household. Who called you insane? You are definately NOT. Your experiences and life are totally normal. Good luck with the new betta when you get him, I worked for Petsmart for 8 years on and off and their 12 cent goldfish aren't the most reliable but hopefully the kids aren't affected too badly by the passing of Bubbles. Feel better soon.

Barb

Lizzi said...

I know its a lot easier said that done, but don't pay them ladies any attention. Its just not worth your time. A lot of them just wait for someone to post something that is somewhat questionable so that they can shoot them down and make them feel like crap. Its what the BBC is all about! ;)

I'm proud of you for telling your husband that you trust him, and that its okay for him to go out. Girl, I know EXACTLY what you are going through!! It used to be soooo hard for me to let Jose go hang out with his friends and his brothers. A million crazy thoughts would start running through my head the second the subject is even brought up! Over the last couple of years, we've grown so much as a couple, though, and the stress is starting to melt away. You said it yourself: You trust him! Everything is going to be okay! :)

My3Ro's said...

Stupid Bubbles was 1.99. I thought he would last longer. Oh well. I am going to get a female betta tomorrow. I know how to take care of them and love them. I think Goldfish are too hard to take care of. They are nasty little critters. I am cycling the tank as we speak so our new fish has a fresh start. This sucks. I am so tired of flushing fish.

This group of mommys told me I was clinically insane. That I did not deserve to be wife or mother. Is that lovely? I guess it is bothering me more then what i thought

Crystal said...

I'm so sorry that your fish passed away.

I'm also sorry that you are sick. That's no fun at all. Try to get some rest.

Also I think I know what board you are talking about. I haven't posted on the new one or the old one in over 2 years because I found most of the ppl. there were too judgemental and mean spirited. I couldn't handle the drama. I don't have the need to put others down to be happy. I haveenough happiness in my life w/o bashing ppl.

I was taught at a very young age that people are different, have different views, concerns and worries, and to accept and give compassion to everyones concerns/thoughts.

I am WAY to HIGH to stoop so low to post bad things about someone else. That's why I left the board.

My mama always tokld me,

"If you don't have something nice to say, don't say it ay all!"

and "Live and Let Live."

I guess most of the ppl. on that board didn't have wondeful mothers that taught them to respect all people. Oh well.

Lift your chin up, know that you are NOT insane (FAR from it!!) You are a VERY, strong, beautiful, wise, smart, funny, loving and caring wife and mother. YOU aren't the one with problems...

(((HUGS)))
Crystal~

My3Ro's said...

I know I am good person. I am not perfect and never pretended to be. I think some people only feel good when they tear other people down. Maybe they are mad cause they have selfish husbands that only think about themselves. From what I am reading most of them are or have been raging alcoholics in the past. I will get over it I know. I think being sick makes it that much worse. I am blessed I know. If I was a bad wife would Ro call me from school just to say he loves me? I think not. Would I get loving emails? I am a good person and I need to ignore the haters. I guess I can thank them for all the hits though right. Thanks ladies you guys really know how to cheer a girl up

doodlebelle said...

That stinks your sick. And flushing the fish too. I hate it that you got bashed on the boards. It's so easy to get caught up in them. Just remember that they are not IRL. Judgement from strangers sux.

Heather said...

Sorry about the fish, hope you feel better soon. As for the board your referring too, i wouldnt call any of those ladies "friends". I have made friends from forums before but that forum, oh no. Its just drama, why you post there in the 1st place, i have no idea. There are so many other forums and boards with civil caring women. Try those and stay away from the drama.
-h

Momto3LittleFlowers said...

Im lost!