Back to Reality

Monday's are always very stinky to me. I went to Walmart and bought a couple of groceries. I walked 5 miles total in 2.5 hours. Pushing the stroller uphill. I bought wild rice and a can of fat free ravioli. It was not too bad actually. Then when Ro got home I attempted my fist time making fresh tuna. I was not sure how to prepare it so I ended up marinating it in a little olive oil, balsamic vinagar, lemon juice and some spices. I then cooked it in the oven at 450 for 10 minutes. I guess we like our fish a little more cooked as noone really ate that much. But I tried at least. Maybe in a couple of weeks I will try again.

Tomorrow is my big 29. It is officially my last year in my twenties. I am torn I am a little sad. Is it fair that in my short life I have experienced the loss of my mother and father? Is it fair that some of my family still acts as I do not exist? Is it fair that over half of my life I was an abused child? All I can do is learn from these experiences. I can grow and make sure my children will not have these memories of me. I will make sure their life is as great as possible. I know 20 is the new 20 but I still wish I could have been a better person. Done a little more. I have one year left until 30.

Honestly my life is pretty darn great. I have a handsome husband. Semi sweet kids and two dogs. I have a roof over my head. Great friends and food on the table at night. My husband has a great job and is persuing a career with a lot of help from it. I cannot complain. Many people would love to be as blessed as I am. I am going to focus on the positive and not negative. Positivity brings positive changes....you know the whole Karma thing. I strongly believe in it.