Saturday, September 6, 2008

Can help but to question myself

Now that reality is setting in about this whole accident I cannot help but question a lot of things. I know that God will not give me more then I can handle but I still feel very dazed and confused and I do not like it. For example this morning I turned the bathtub on to clean it out and I went back an hour later and forgot it was turned on. Water is all over the floor and I am still kicking myself. How long will I be this way? Its not fair. I have no patience and I am getting distracted very easy. I have no energy and get wiped out just talking on the phone. Why is God testing me so? Why did this happen? Will I learn from it if I cannot remember anything? I guess it is a good thing I have this blog. I will actually be able to reflect to these days and remember this test if for some reason I do not heal properly. I am scared of that. Will I have to always carry my phone number around or fumble for words? I guess I am being punished for being too strong of a woman and needed to be knocked back to reality. Oh well...just had to get this off my chest. I am off to clean the apartment or at least attempt it again. I will keep updating

4 Comments / Comentarios:

Momto3LittleFlowers said...

Hun, I cant stop thinking about you guys... Big ((((HUGS))) to you and I wish I could be closer and help you out a bit with the chores... I do hope that big Ro helps out, so you can rest... Is there somebody who can take care of Ro-N for a few days?? I know it will be hard to be apart, but you need to get better, and you need to REST!!!!

Will continue to pray for you... As for the pictures, I came back to showed them to DH, and that's why I asked because he didnt got to see them...


My3Ro's said...

Hey mama: I sent you some pictures so you can show Ernesto. I do not want to post them to public because some family reads and will forward them to people who will make fun of me. KWIM? Good news though. I got the apartment looking liveable and big ro understand. Now here comes a headache again love ya

Momto3LittleFlowers said...

Liveable is enough and Im happy he understands!!! :)

Crystal said...

I am so sorry to hear that you are still not feeling much better. I do believe that time will heal and you will be fine. You need to get as much rest as possible. Do you have anyone to babysit Ro-N for a few hours in the day while you get some rest? Any friends that can help you with the chores and dinner etc? You need to rest as much as you can.

You are still in my prayers.